I wiped my tear away furiously. I couldnt be weak in front of him. No I refuse to be weak.
Did you hear what he said?
That's exactly when the words register in my brain. He isn't regretting it. He's just scared to hurt me. His warmth flows into me through his hands. His hands. Hands with long slim fingers. Soft hands. Hands much bigger than mine. I take his hand in mine and hold it between both my hands. Hands with tiny fingers and a small palm compared to his. Slowly I trail my eyes up. Taking in my mate. I finally lock my gaze with his. His eyes. Still burning golden but now with sadness. With adoration. His eyes. The most soothing thing on this planet. His eyes. Beautiful golden eyes.
It's not his eyes Avery. It's Benjamin.
Benjamin? I ask with frown. Last time I checked he was Elliot and not Benjamin.
His wolf, Benjamin.
I gasp in realisation and suddenly scurry backwards. Only to make him growl like a mad animal. It's only scaring me more.
I scurry farther away and hide in a corner. I cover my face with my hands and can't help the whimper from escaping my lips. I can feel myself shivering. I know I have blocked my thoughts but I just want Dan to be here. I could always unblock them and contact him but then Elliot will be able to get in. I can feel him already pushing that block away. It's causing a headache to start. Maybe being a werewolf isn't always that good. Suddenly I feel a sharp pain in my head making me clutch it and let out a scream. A bloodcurdling scream. The pain disappeared as soon as I let out a scream. I could suddenly feel his hands on my face. Only this time was I scared of those warm hands. I couldnt get it. Just a few moments ago was he here. My Elliot was here but now its Benjamin.
Suddenly I hear Benjamin growl loudly and snapping his jaw at me as if he's hurt by something I said. Maybe he can read my thoughts.
"Me and Elliot. We both are yours" I heard him through the link. It still doesn't help me with my fear. I'm scared he might hurt me. I know how wolves are for their mates. He's inching closer to me and I have no space left. I close my eyes hoping to lose him somewhere. But that's not true. I can feel his breath on my face.
"Please leave me alone." I plea with tears running down my face. Elliot has let Benjamin take over his human for the timebeing and its scary.
"I'm not going to hurt you Avery" Benjamin replies.
He's our mate too Avery.
I know he's our mate too but he's not my Elliot. I want Elliot. I wrap my arms around my torso hugging myself.
"Elliot" I whisper ever so lightly hoping for him to come back. I know he will come for me.
"Please Elliot. I need you right now." I whispered again. Benjamin was gone and I could feel it. I was suddenly scooped up in a warm and caring embrace.
Elliot!
He picked me up and carried me inside. It was starting to get cold out there. My vision cleared on its own. My wolf and I were getting used to each other. We were coming on terms with each other.
I snuggles into his embrace. I know my wolf was happy about it. She's already in love with him but I? Not yet.
He ever so lightly places me on my bed and sits himself on the floor in front of me. We both know its for the best. If he was to be even an inch closer to me Benjamin would break through. I closes my eyes letting out a sigh.
"I'm sorry Avery"
One could hear how scared he was. But what was he scared of? I wasn't stronger than him nor was I planning on leaving him.
"Why are you apologizing?" I asked all confused.
"Because I let Benjamin take over. It's just that ive been waiting for Maya to show up and now that she's finally here it just drives my wolf crazy. Even now when sitting right here in front of you saying sorry for what all I did I can't help but feel the urge to hold you next to me. To make you mine. To put my mark on you. And I know this isn't right but oh well. I just want you to know that Benjamin would never hurt you. Yes he's impatient and he wants you to accept us immediately like he did. But I get it Avery. You already have a lot in your plate and I don't wanna add up to it."
"Elliot I totally understand what you're trying to say. But its just that this is all so new. If someone would've told me 5 days ago that I were to turn into a wolf, honestly I would've told them to get themselves checked. But then I can't blame anyone for my parents' death."
"Only if I had listened to my mom and stayed at home" I could feel him living it all again.
