Letting Go

Dear Self

Dear self,
How can I feel beautiful
How can I feel fulfilled
I never feel worthy of being called beautiful on social media, how can people be confident in a world full of judgement, society is a cruel place to grow up.

We grow up being told we're beautiful, but when we get older, we have people telling us otherwise. They say I can't be self conscious, or confident. Well darling, there's no in between. It's not easy, growing up and battling with yourself.

I've always wanted to feel confident, and believe me, I used to. Then I grew up. Becoming a teenager, puts you in a new world. A cruel, judgemental world.  We all have to be unique, but still conform to the norm, in order to be accepted.

I'm tired of waking up, looking in the mirror, and pointing out a million flaws. No one goes through their life completely confident in themselves. But we should be able to. I just wish that I could. That I wouldn't be afraid to be me. I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, or dress the wrong way. For I can't change my face, but I can change a lot of things.

It's scary, growing up. Even though we don't say we do, we all point out other people's flaws. And I point out my own. I'm scared, okay, I'm scared of being an outcast. I'm scared of being considered ugly. Am I already?

I'm scared, of society...