It's my 9th month and I'm already ready to get this baby out of my stomach even though I'll miss the cravings of beef jerry and calling Imran early in the morning to buy me food , But I'm ready to get it out .
I'm also afraid I won't know when she'll start kicking so I'll have to be prepared .
Imran is at work oh yeah I didn't tell you guys if my baby is a girl or a boy .
It's a girl and I'm ready to call her faida ( beneficial )
The most beautiful thing in the world is when you are becoming a mother and you start to notice that you will have to look after your baby and give it a lot of love even if you guys are going through the worst.
I relized that even though I have left Imran many many times it doesn't matter no more because love cam make you do many many selfish n stupid things and you just got to go with
"Amber let's buy baby clothes."
" Sure baby girl !
I was a little bit nervous because I was new to this whole parenting stuff and I wanted everything to be just perfect ,for my little angel Faida.
As I got in the store I wanted to take all the clothes that was there and I actually did because I was done with college and became a professional designer.
I touched every baby girl clothes and there wasn't one that made my eyes love it but then I saw this dress that had " useful " on the top and that was exactly what I was looking for because Faida means useful, beneficial.
" Amber look at this one ain't it just beautiful. "
" Yeah that's lovely !
I went to the cashier and gave her my debit card and my stomach felt weird and it felt like the baby was kicking me and it was then it stopped for a while so I thought It wasn't a big deal.
" Amber , I felt a kick while I was paying the cashier do you think the baby is ready to come out ?
" Naaa Maybe it was just an upset stomach or maybe you was hungry. "
" But Amber it was a hard kick and I think my baby is ready to come out I'm afraid I'll have to have my baby in the car or street , And I don't want to do that , I want my angel to be born the proper way ."
" T-ara there's no proper way in having a baby , If you have your baby in the lake , sink ,beach ,trash. It dosen't matter the thing that really matters is that your little angel is ok ."
"Thanks for the speech Amber ."
" Damn!? ,You ain't gotta be cranky ."
The whole ride I was afraid that I was going to have labor but Alhamdulilha (thank god ) I made at home with my loving husband Imran.
" Imran close your eyes I want to show you something ."
" What is it ?
" Just close it ."
" OK ."
I got out the clothes I bought at the store .
" You can open your eyes now ."
(Opened eyes )
" tada !
" It's beautiful ! I just can't wait to see my beautiful angel ."
At night Imran always rubbed my belly and we would always talk to Faida about how we met and baby songs . I waited until Imran used the bathroom so I could tell my baby something .
" Faida I wanna tell you something ."
" when you come out of my belly I promise to Allah that I will take good care of you make sure you do good deeds and always be who you are . I promise I won't try to feed you nasty food , I just can't wait to hear you call me mommy , Faida your my diamond I'm your gold and daddy is our silver .
It was night and I really needed to go to the bathroom , Imran always took me to the bathroom because I was afraid of fall off the stairs.
I didn't want to disturb him because he always worked and would come back home with neck and back pain.
I closed our room door slowly and took one step at a time , I was also wearing slippers of course . I went down the first stair then the second then I saw a rat It popped up out of nowhere .
THUD !
My whole body was in pain and I was praying that I did not fell on top of my belly
and I did though because I felt it .
