Dear Cole,
Hey buddy! Today is June 24th, 2013. It is 2:30 in the afternoon and I am St. Jude's hospital getting blood taken. I was just sitting in this hospital bed thinking about you. We're going to hang out after this, I can't wait! Since yesterday was the last day of school, it's Summer! I am so excited because I get to go on the NRG Tour with you. Well, this morning I woke up to Michael and my dad fighting over breakfest. The usual. My mom made shaped pancakes, the ones we used to play with when we were little. I didn't have quite an appetite this morning so i didn't eat anything. I then procceced to take a shower and get changed into my new Summer clothes. I slid on my bracelet you gave me back in Kindergarten. It always tops off my outfit. I stood in front of the mirror for half an hour calling myself beautiful, like you taught me to do when I was getting bullied back in 5th grade. I do that every day now. You made me less insecure. More confident. I haven't felt very good lately though. The chemotherapy doesn't seem to be working, sadly. Doctor Evans said I have about six more months to live. I'm trying to stay strong, for my parents, for my brother, for you... I don't want to leave this earth but my time'es almost up. I watched my mom leave the room when the doctor told us that. She's still in the hallway sobbing. I'm sitting in this bed, sweating by butt off and just thinking of all the good times we had. I'm a little light headed from all this blodd getting taken but I'm sorry if I act loopy when we hang out. Here comes my nurse, I'll write to you again tomorrow. I love you, never forget that. No matter how far apart we are, we're always going to be best friends. When I'm gone and your alone, just look up at the sky, Talk to the moon, talk to the sun. Cause I'll be talking back. Best friends forever
-Emma <3
I ripped the piece of paper out of my journal and grabbed a blue envelope, our favorite color. I folded the piece of paper in half and slid it in. I licked the envelope and smoothed it down. My nurse arrived next to me and gave me a sad smile. "How are you today Emma?" She asked. I smiled up at her. "I'm good. What about you?" I questioned. She unhooked my I.V. and took out the needle. "i'm good. I'll see you back here next week." She said. She kissed my head and hurried down the hall. I stood up and grabbed by bag from the floor. I shoved by journal in there and zipped it up. I looked towards my mom at the end of the hallway. She was sitting against the wall, head in her hands. I frowned a little and walked down the hall. I arrived next to mom and poked her arm. She quickly began to wiper her eyes and sniffled. She looked up at me and me a smile. "Hey, how'd it go?" She asked. I bit my lip. My mom's eyes were red and puffy. "Fine." I said. My mom stood up and hugged me. "That's good. Ready to go to Cole's?" I nodded and we walked out of the hospital. My mom and I walked to the car in silence. I pulled out my phone and texted Cole. I laid my head back against the car seat as my mom climbed in. She put the key in the ingition and buckled herself in. The car stopped at a red a light, I felt eyes on me. I craned my neck and my mom was smiling at me. I raised any eyebrow. "You have such a beautiful voice Emma. Why don't you use it?" She asked. I bit the inside of my cheek and shrugged. We drove for five more minuted until we got to Cole's house. I got butterflies in my stomach. My mom pulled into the driveway and parked the car. Momma Pendery and her were going shopping. My mom grasped the doorknob and pushed it open. I followed her in. "We're here!" My mom called out. I heard footsteps on the stairs and I turned around. Cole was heading down the stairs. I smiled. "Hey Cole!" I said. Cole smiled back at me "Hey Emma!" He responded. Momma Pendery stepped out from the kitchen. "Hey! Ready to go shopping?" Momma Pendery asked. "Of course!" Mom replied. They walked out the door and drove out the driveway. "What are we going to do today?" I questioned. "I don't know but do you feel okay?" Cole asked. I nodded. "Yeah why?" "You just seem whiter than usual." He stated. I rolled my eyes playfully but I knew he was right. "I'm fine." I said "Want to go to the lake Cole asked. I nodded and smiled. The lake was Cole and I's favorite place. We always went there. No one else knew about it. I went to the bathroom to see if I was really that white. Cole was right. I walked out of the bathroom and met Cole in the hallway. "Ready?" He asked. I nodded. Cole and I walked out his back door and into the woods. We walked for a good 10 minutes when I could finally hear the waterfall. The lake came into view. It was a beautiful day. I ran past Cole and to the big rock, and made a run for the lake. Strong arms wrapped around me. "Your not winning this time Waltz." Cole whispered in my ear. I got goosebumps. Cole put me down and made a run for the lake. I followed after him and we splashed into the lake. Cole and I both broke out into laughter as we swam. A few minutes later clouds rolled in. I frowned as thinder echoed through the valley. "We should get home." Cole said. I nodded and we got out. I threw the towel on as soon as it started to pour. Cole and I made a run for his house. A couple minutes later we were sitting on his living room couch, dry, and playing modern warfare two. The front foor opened and my mom and Cole's mom walked in. "Hello you two." They said. Cole and I waved. I beat Cole and raised my hands in victory. Cole rolled his eyes at me. I giggled. "Your just jealous." I said standing up. "Alright come on Em. We have to get home to your father and brother. See you guys tomorrow for dinner, right?" My mom asked turning to Momma Pendery. "Of course." Momma Pendery said. "I'm gonna go take a shower." Cole said. He hugged me goodbye and headed upstairs. I grabbed my letter from my bag and handed it to Momma Pendery. She looked in my eyes and gave me a hug. She knew I only had a few months left. "See you tomorrow!" She called after me. I followed my mom to the car and hopped in. My mom drove home and we got into the house. My dad and brother were sitting in the living room watching some cooking show. I rolled my eyes. Michael turned around. "How was it?" He asked. "Eh. The usual." I replied. He nodded. Michael was the kind of brother who you could fight with but never stay mad at. I was going to miss hime when I was gone. Both Michael and my dad tried acting tough when it came to cancer. Not crying in front of me or my mom, but I heards them sobbing every night. I shook the thought away. Michael, and everyone else for the matter, should remember me happy, not sad in my last few months. I jogged upstairs and into the bathroom. I stripped off my clothes and took a shower. When I stepped out I threw on my pjs and went to turn the tv on. Dance Moms came on. I grabbed my phone. Cole texted me. A smile came to my face.
To: Emma From: Cole 'Goodnight best friend. I love you!'
This is why this boy meant the world to me....
Ok so this is my very first book I have written so exucse my bad grammer, punctation, and writing. I will try to update every day but I have school and activities so I might not also update. Sorry that this first chapter was so long I kinda needed to get a lot of information in this one. but anyways Comment Lile. Thanks for reading!!!!!
-im5andICONicboylover <3
