I felt a hand in mine and was yanked up. I spluttered wqater as I came to the surface. Everybody stared at me. A light crimson color crept on my cheeks in embarrassement. Will chuckled. "What were you doing? Trying to kill yourself?" He said. I have him a fake smile. Yes, yes I was Will. I shook my head and everyone began socializing and talking again. I let out a deep breath and leaned back against the pool wall. I threw my head back and I let the sun soak my face. I shut my eyes and the summer heat hit me hard. A few seconds later, water went up my nose. Someone had splashed me. I bit the inside of my cheek as I opened my eyes. Lindsey stood there with a smirk. Cole stood next to her. He was such a follower. I rolled my eyes and pulled myself up out of the pool. "Ooh poor baby, you got a little wet. Cry me a river Emma." Lindsey spat. "Hey Lindsey! Watch your tone with my sister, you slut." Michael responded. A smile crept on my face as I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around me. I started to feel sick so I made my way towards the bathrooms. I ran in and into one of the stalls. I locked the door and leaned over the toilet, coughing up blood. I frowned as I wiped my mouth with a piece of toilet paper. This sucked. I heard the door creak open. "Emma?" Momma Pendery's voice called. I opened the foor and stepped out. Our eyes met and she frowned. "You okay, sweetie?" She asked. My bottom lip began to quiver and I shook my head, running into Momma Pendery's arms. I cried and cried as she rubbed my back and soothed me. "It's okay honey. Just this one trip and she'll be gone. Cole wil realize he's being a jerk, don't you worry." Momma Pendery said. I looked up at her and nodded. "Are you sure?" I whispered. Momma Pendery looked down at me for awhile in silence. She sighed. "I hope so." She stated. I nodded. "Want some water?" She asked. I nodded. The taste of iron was stuck in my mouth from throwing up blood. Momma Pendery pulled a water bottle from out of her bag and handed it to me. I took and thanked her. I twisted the cap until it popped off and then took a sip. I gurgled it and spit it in the sink. I took a swig of the water and swallowed. "Much better." I said with a smile. Momma Pendery put the bottle bag in her bag and smiled back. She checked the time on her phone. "Want to go to lunch?" Momma Pendery questioned. My stomach growled on cue and I nodded. We both walked out of the bathroom. We walked back to the pool and everyone was putting there clothes back over their bathing suits. I looked up and nodded. My mom patted my back and put her arm around my shoulder. She grabbed my brother and did the same thing. We walked like that the whole way. We walked inside the restaurant and took a seat. Everyone else piled in. Cole sat next to me. I rolled my eyes and sighed, standing up. "I'll be back." I mumbled. No one seemed to notice me leaving. I walked into the bathroom to do my business. I stepped out of the stall and began to fix my hair. The door swung open and a familiar blonde hair appeared in my way. I groaned. Lindsey. Lindsey arrived next to me and I looked at her in the mirror. Her blonde hair lay perfectly curly against her back, not one piece misplaced. Her baby blue eyes popped. Her lips were big and pink. She was just flawless. No wonder Cole loved her. "Can you move over a little, freak?" Lindsey questioned, annoyance set in her tone. I rolled my eyes and moved over. "Thanks." She muttered. I nodded and began to leave. "Did you really think he would ever like you?" Lindsey asked. I stopped in my tracks and craned my neck to look at her. "Excuse me?" I asked. "I said, did you really think Cole would ever fall for some anorexic, ugly, pathetic girl like you?" Lindsey said. She turned around and leaned against the sink. I swallowed hard. "Cause he wouldn't. He likes all of this," Lindsey stated, pointing up and down her body. She looked up at me, a look of disgust laid on her face. "Not whatever you call yourself." She finished. I nodded. "Good to know." I muttered. I hurried out of the bathroom. I wasn't hungry anymore. I walked over to my mom and whispered to her that I was going for a walk. She nodded and I headed towards the doors. "Where are you going?" I heard from behind me. I turned and my eyes met familiar green ones. Cole. I frowned. "Why do you care?" I growled. Cole frowned too. I rolled my eyes and pushed open the door. I began my walk. It was getting even hotter. I walked down the blocks of downtown Orlando. I arrived near a quiet miniature lake. I walked down the hill and began to walk around it. I saw an empty bench and walked over to it. I took a seat, crossing my legs beneath me. The oak tree above me kept me cool. I opened my bag and pulled my journal out. Time to write to Cole. I opened the journal and took out my black pen. The tip hit my paper and I just wrote.
Dear Cole,
Hey! It's July 17th, 3 in the afternoon. I just thought I'd write to you again since I'm going to miss tomorrow. Your meet and greet and performance is all tomorrow night and all tomorrow we'll be helping you set up. That leaves me no time to write to you. Anyway, I honestly can't believe you. After everything we've been through, you left. You promise you would never do something like that to me but you did. Over a girl. I haven't been looking in the mirror and telling myself I'm beautiful anymore. Reminds me too much of you. You told me to always believe what you said so I guess I should. I'm a fat/anorexic, ugly, pathetic little girl. You know, it's really funny. I'm sitting here wasting my tears on you while you're having a gran time. I don't even know why I try to be honest. If it wasn't for Will pulling me up out of the pool, I could have been long gone. You wanna know what else I don't get? Why, as I was leaving the restaurent you suddenly cared where I was going. To be honest, I wish I was kidnapped on my way here. So that I could never see your face again. This is has been such a love/hate relationship lately, and it's all your fault. If we don't talk before I die I just want you to know, I'm so done. No matter how much I love you, I still hate you. And I hope I prove that to you. Don't cry when I'm gone because you weren't there for me when I was alive. What happened to best friends forever? Was that a joke, Cole? Was our whole friendship just a big game to you? I'm so done, you make me sick. I honestly can't even explain the hatred I have towards you at this moment. I wish I never met you. And I sure as heak wish I never fell for you. A best friend? What is that? Can I buy one? That's exactly how I feel right now. If you want to be with Lindsey and lose me, that's fine. Have an amazing life Cole. Enjoy your time while it's left because mine was cut short. I'm no longer happy Emma everyone used to know. You see my smile? It's about as real as Barbie is. But it still fools everyone. It's funny how you always ask who your enemies are when they've been disguised as your best friend the whole time...
Author's Note: Ok, so I am very sorry that I haven't been updating, I have had a lot on my plate these last few days. But since I am going to have some free time in the next few days I will be updating and getting a lot of chapters up. Oh and I just want to thank all of my readers for reading this fan fiction I really appreciate it!!!!
-im5andICOicboylover
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