With falling in love conflict appears...
November 3rd, 2013.
This was our first big fight. I remember it clear as day. Every word, emotion, and tear.
¤ Flashback ¤
Sterling is in the shower, while I lay in bed getting ready for one of our movie nights. His phone buzzes and his screen lights up. I glance over. The phone screen reads; Message: Monica, Yeah next week sounds great. I can't wait to see you!(;... My heart races I'm not sure what to think.
I hear the shower turn off. Act normal, completely normal. Sterling walks out with a towel hanging off his hips. Damn I wish he wasn't so attractive. Don't cave into it I tell myself. He dips to kiss me but I turn my head. I can't help it. That message bothers me.
He looks at his phone. Cheesily smiling while replying.
" Why so happy to text... Monica!"
" How'd you know it was Monica?"
" When your phone buzzed I glanced over."
" I can't believe you snooped!"
" I can't believe you're texting another girl while your with me & being all happy about it."
" Maybe I like talking to her?"
" We'll if you like talking to her why don't you go be with her instead!"
I slam the door behind me and get in my car. The radio echoes through the speakers as I drive home. Wiping away tears I run inside my house to my room.
Tears come flooding as soon as I sit on my bed. He's going to leave. What have I done? I've lost him. Why would he do this? Am I not enough? What do I do?
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Two days have passed and I haven't managed to get out of bed. My tears have stained my cheeks. The bed is a sea of tissues and every romance movie has been played over and over.
I hear a knock on my bedroom door.
"Come in."
"Oh goodness you look like hell."
"Love you too Leena."
"Hey! I brought ice cream and your favorite TV series on DVD."
"This is why you're my bestfriend. I love you!"
"So tell me what happened."
"Basically I overreacted because he was texting some other girl and was really happy. They have plans for this week too. He hasn't spoke to me. I don't know where we even stand."
" Oh hun. Things will work themselves out if it's meant to. Otherwise he's lost the best thing that he's ever had."
I start to weep. Leena puts her arms around me. Gosh this hurts so bad. I cry and cry and cry.
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It's now been 4 days. My chest feels empty without his love. I think my eyes will permanently be tinted pink from all the crying. This is it I keep telling myself this is where it ends.
There's a knock at my door. I open it only to see Sterling and Monica...
¤ Flashback Ends ¤
I cringe from the memory. My body ached from being without him. It felt like a part of me was missing. There's actually a piece of me missing now. Like a hole in my heart as some would put it.
The hurt I felt then was nothing to what it felt like at the very end. At the end there was no after talk. It was simply grabbing my shit and leaving. At least I got an explanation after this fight...
