my mind feels numb.
it also feels pressured.
I can't really describe it.
it's scary. I'm there one minute, gone the next.
All because I let small things eat me alive.
My head is pounding. Aching. Throbbing.
I want a way out. But not a permanent way out.
I just want this to stop.
I want to be with my favorite person in the world right now but that's not going to happen right this instant.
I wish I could fathom the words to explain this to him.
I'm sure he doesn't care really..
I just feel like he's in my life and he deserves to know..
I'm making this so bluntly indirect it's becoming direct.
Perhaps I just need a break for my mind.
If I had it my way I'd be with him the whole weekend.
No interruptions, just us. If he wanted to be with just me anyways...
I feel like it would help clear my mind and revive my melancholy soul. He's truly the only one who keeps me sane lately.
Sure nothing in my life is so devastating or bad at the moment, but hey, that's what depression does to you. It makes you feel this way..
"Good old fashion depression.."
I've spilled a bit from my mind for you again. Just so you can read it and attempt to realize I'm truly broken inside.
I'm just a fragile spirit in your hands, handle with care...
xx Venom.
