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Yuichiro's Point Of View

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⠀September 14th, 2015

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⠀⠀⠀Dear Diary, it's been— what, five months since Mika has asked me to be his boyfriend? Even though Shinoa and I broke up, we're still friends and we rarely bring up the situation. Really, it's been the best few months I've ever experienced in my lifetime! We've done a lot of things over the summer like going to the beach, flying to different places, and got matching shirts. It isn't fair, though! Mika is said to be the man of this relationship when it's obvious that I'm the man, and he's the woman! But nonetheless, I feel as though we're perfect for one another. I love him so much with all of my heart. He'll forever be my prince ( and I guess I'm the princess ).

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⠀⠀⠀Currently, I've been doing a project in college with Yoichi, and it's sad that nowadays I don't get to be around with Mikaela that much.

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⠀⠀⠀I try my best, really, to get home to Mikaela as quickly as I can, but no matter how hard I try— Yoichi and I can never get things done and get me home on time. It's just simply impossible. It's not like I know that it makes Mikaela distressed and lonely when I never get to eat dinner with him or fall asleep in his hold. Sadly, it just never seems to work out as we expected. Mikaela gets irritated at times, not greeting me when I get home and leaving my dinner on the table. All he does is stuff himself into our room, locking the door until he knows that I'm ready to sleep.

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⠀⠀⠀It breaks my heart, honestly, but our project has to get completed in the small amount of time we have.

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⠀⠀⠀I love being with Yoichi. He's a great guy with such shyness that it turns out to be cute; cuter than I'd have ever thought it'd be. Perhaps, it was just the way his hair seemed to fall into place? The fact that it was quite messy, fluffy, yet ended up still being healthy was filled with cuteness. Or maybe, it was his dilated-green eyes were what made him what he is now?
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⠀⠀⠀Or was it the smile?

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⠀⠀⠀His sweet personality?

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⠀⠀⠀Hell, I didn't know. But whatever it was that he owned made my heart go total berserk! I mean, not totally berserk that it made me lose sight on my love for my precious Mikaela... but it was enough to make my cheeks inflame along with a dreamy sigh to escape my lips. I didn't want to lose Mika, but at the same time, I wanted Yoichi to be mine, and mine alone.

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⠀⠀⠀I wanted to wrap my arms around his tiny waist, pressing him against my own frame for warmth or just for closeness. I wanted to kiss his forehead and tender lips at random times, his voice squeaking in complaint, but still acknowledging that he liked it. I wanted him to run to his heart's content then leap into my very arms, never letting go.

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⠀⠀⠀It took a lot to not insert an, "I think, perhaps, Mika isn't my prince, after all, and that, Yoichi may be my other half..." into my diary. Usually, most of my feelings and thoughts dwelled amongst these very pages and yet, I couldn't put them down for risk that Mikaela might see it.