Sorry for being me (jori)

Jade

I've been depressed since Tori died. Some days are manageable but others I have to leave places an walk to clear my head. People aren't as scared of me anymore because of my being depressed but that makes me more dangerous in my opinion. I've taken up cutting again, as well as burning myself with a lighter. I've also been drinking a lot. I really miss Tori. Well I gotta get to school, sadly.

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I walk past Tori's locker everyday at school and it makes me wanna cry. I wish it were me instead of her. Dad should've shot me instead! Damn him!
I must've said that last part out loud because Cat asked "Damn who?"
"My father." I reply and she hugs me, I let her. I look over at Tori's locker and know what I'm going to do tonight. It'll hurt other people but I can't take this anymore.

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When I got home I locked myself in my room and grabbed my blade and dagger and my vodka. I drank the bottle of vodka slit my wrists deep and plunged the dagger into my chest. Darkness overtook me. And I saw an angel of death.

"Jade. Are you ready?" The death angel asked.
"Ready for?" I asked
"To go where you need to go now." She replied.
"Where will I go?" I ask.
"Where you're meant to. I do not know. All I know is I am to guide you through this portal," she points at a tunnel of light. "To where you are meant to be now." She finished.
"Okay? Yeah, let's go I guess." I said unsure.
"Let us go then." She said and took my hand I knew it would help so I went with it. And I saw pearly gates at the end of the tunnel. The death angel led me to the gates and introduced me to Gabriel, the archangel. He led me to Beck and Tori. We all hugged and cried.
"I love you Tori." I cry.
"I love you too Jade." She cried back.
We were reunited.
"Awe. I love you both you know?" Beck said teary eyed at the reunion.
"We love you too Beck." Tori and I said at the same time and hugged him forming a group hug.