"Look daddy I know you don't want me to work but how am I supposed to know the worth of a dollar if all i gotta do is snap my fingers to get it?!"
"Ok baby girl you can work just not nowhere near these streets work at Walmart or something"
"Daddy... Walmart don't pay me like you would you must have forgot at one point i was cutting the checks for your employees at the restaurant they get paid way over what they suppose to can i at least work there?"
"No because if anything goes down in that kitchen i don't want you to go down too"
"But-" his eyes went from hazel green to black
"NO CHIANNE DAMN JUST LISTEN TO ME I SWEAR YOU WORK MY LAST NERVE WITH THAT SHIT" he said calling me by my middle name.
"Well damn daddy you don't have to worry about me asking for nothing" i rolled my eyes and walked out teary eyed i'll admit im a cry baby especially when my daddy yells at me. I kept in my tears till i got to the red light 2 minutes up the street. One thing my daddy always told me was never let these niggas see you cry because then they know your weakness. Even when I was mad at my daddy I knew his wisdom was always to protect me. When i pulled up to my house i seen the same car that was in momma brooks garage in my parking lot. What the fuck going on I pulled my mini revolver out of my glove compartment and put it in my waist band. When i walked in the house there was red rose petals and red candles lit i don't have a man. I followed the red roses to a piece of paper that said I'm here to stay now baby I'm sorry and I'm about to show you how sorry I am. "What the fuck?" I whispered to myself I followed the pink flowers with the pink candles. When i got in my room i heard the sweet soft sounds of 'he heals me' by India Arie i looked on my bed and seen 4 boxes lined up with a note on top of it.
For each year I missed...
"It can't be" i felt hands wrap around my waist.
"But it is my love I'll explain tomorrow morning but tonight will be spent with me making it up" he pulled off my shirt and unhooked my bra I turned around to see a huge scar under his eye I reached for it but he gently grabbed my hand and put it back to my side then he unhooked my pants and pulled down my pants and panties thank god I shaved. He picked me up and carried me to the bathroom and lightly put me in the bathtub. He took off his basketball shorts and draws and got in the tub with me. I looked at him good and long momma brook knew and didn't tell me... I'll admit it did hurt my feelings alot. She kept me and my son away from him knowing how much I hurt and how many nights I stayed up on the phone with her crying.
"Why? Why did you leave Carmon? Do you know how much hurt I went through these past 4 years? You missed so much if my sons life he always asks for you and I always made up excuses as to why you wasn't here... Im really hurt Camron just tell me why you did it...?"
"Well I guess I at least owe you an explanation huh? Those four years I was locked up on some bs ass drug charges... He's not your son he's our son and he knows me he seen me and talked to me every time he was at mommas house or when he was with ya daddy. I told them to promise to go with the death shit because I didn't want you to worry your pretty little head about me the plan was to always come back... I know it was a fucked up move and i truly apologize for it. I just didn't want you to be up there because i hate to see the look of hurt in your eyes..."
"Really? So why did you leave I cried and hurt plenty of times... That was a selfish as fuck move like for real... I still love you but I don't know if I can be with you with all this on my mind right now..."
"Can i at least lay with you tonight? I missed you I really did."
"Let me think about it" I got out the tub and got into the shower to wash up. When i got out I walked in my room to see the gifts on my dresser my covers pulled back and Camron under them watching espn. "I didn't give you permission to lay in my bed can you get up"
"I know you miss me laying up next to you." I turned around and dropped my towel and bent over,I heard a soft groan then i grabbed my clothes and walked out the room into the guest room. He can have the room if he really thought i was gone lay with him after that bs he pulled he got life fucked up. I walked in the room and locked the door. He gone learn the heard way I see...
