Day After Day

What Just Happened!

I was painting for three and a half hours straight. I painted a girl crying in a cornor. Cause that was what I wanted to do at the moment. I wanted to cry I felt so abused and used. I knew he was lying by that point. I never knew it would be so scary I never thought it would be him. At first I believed him now I don't I started to think straight when I was painting. Everything had happened so fast I knew I was being used. He was so sweet I was so angry, depressed, I didn't know what exactly to think. I lost my mind when I let him move in so fast I lost it I didn't know what to do.

So much confusion i was so annoyed I was still saving my money thinking should I go to college. I was thinking maybe just get a bed here I never thought of anything from those texts. I texted Drake and said "Hey I'm coming home to get something I might be out all night so yea.

I drove to my studio with all my things with music off my phone playing through the speakers of the car. I was actually happy didn't know what to do next since I was free from love until some other day when I find the real man of my life. He only lasted a week not even. 

I got to the studio and grabbed a brand paper and started to paint again. So far it has taken a dramatic down fall from graduation to now but it will get better. I mean who knows what might happen for me tomorrow. Maybe I will meet the perfect guy for me, who won't cheat on me, leave me after a day, who won't take things to far, who likes me for me. I really hope that happens someday.

While I was painting I was listening to Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. It stated making me think maybe this will be me someday. I started painting from my heart again singing to the song "but hold you breath, because tonight will be the night i fall for you, over again, don't make me change my mind, I won't live to see another day I swear it's true, because a girl like you is impossible to find your impossible to find." I was smiling stroke after stroke color after color.

Each stroke match the beat to the song. I was happy and my painting was what I had hoped for... Love, it was all based on love, it had a girl that kind of looked exactly like me and a guy I didn't know who was. We were holding hands staring into eachother's eyes. I started to think "Maybe this is real maybe this will happen someday" but then it changed and I started thinking "I doubt it but you never know what will happen in your life." I took the painting off the easel about an hour later after it dried and hung it on the wall in hope. I didn't know what was to happen next I decided to look at a clock and it said "12:30 AM" I jumped then said to myself "I have been painting and stuff for hours." I didn't know time felt so slow but went by so fast. I decided to get some sleep for tomarow. So I went to bed and i had hoped everything would be okay in life...

That night i dreamt I was in love with the guy in my painting. I still didn't know who he was. I wondered who the Blonde headed, Grey eyed guy was. We were together has 2 kids one 16 year old son and then a 6 year old daughter. I was a profesional artist and I was in college. He was a lawyer and he had already went to college. We were happily married. Then that dream turned into a nightmare. Everything changed, I was in the hospital, with bruises on my face a broken wrist and broken nose. Everyone turned into horrible monsters...

~~~ took a weird turn right tell me what you think.