My Dominant Mistress (Misaya x Lancer fanfic) fate prototype

chapter 8 things i expect from you

LANCER'S POV

"so how's your homework?" misaya asked

"i keep on reading and researching. im excited. im looking forward to it. im currently writing my proposed contract" i answered

"you're excited? i really wonder if once we've done this, you still want to do this again" misaya said

"you have nothing to worry about. im going to accept the consequence of being submissive to you. unless you change your mind." i answered

"before we make and sign the contract, i want you to know the things i expect from you." misaya said

"i'm listening" i pick a pen and notebook. im writing this down.

"first, you should have interest in me." misaya said

im surprised

"I won't play with someone who just want to be played with. I want him to want me. i dont want to be just someone." misaya added

did i get it wrong? she want me to want her. she might mean sexually. no emotional attachment to her at all.

"i need you to be confident. i dont want to end up giving you constant encouragement. It's tiring and lessens the enjoyment" misaya said

"im confident. dont worry." i answered

"to spice things up, we should bring different things but there should still be common ground. there should be a willingness to experiment. And not just sexually; I love novel experiences and would want to share it with someone. YOU" misaya said

"i totally agree with you about that matter." i said

im glad she's open minded. i need to be creative.

"dont take the kink too seriously. lets have fun." misaya said

"right. lets have fun" i said

" there will be times that we're going to switch roles. so you get a chance to be a dominant. but even if i let you to be dominant, you still need to remember that im still the dominant" misaya said

"im glad to hear that." i honestly answered

"there will be also times that i dont feel dominating you. but i still need you to pamper and take care of me." misaya asked

"i have no problem with that" i replied

"I need you to take care of yourself. I don't want to be someone's mom and remind them to eat well, dress properly, dont get yourself killed and etc." misaya said

"you have nothing to worry about" i assure her

"be who you are and remain that way. i dont want you to end up a sex maniac. We should be able to interact in a non-BDSM setting." misaya said

"okay." i said

"Good non-verbal communications. I can read most people's body language, but there were some people whom I simply can't understand. If I can't understand them, I can't play with them." misaya said

"same goes with you. there were times i cant understand you" im opening myself up

"please explain further." misaya said

"you're a leopard then suddenly you become an angel." i said

"i see. which is why we also have to be good in verbal communications. We need to be able to talk to one another and make ourselves understood. If we communicate in very different ways, that might be a problem. Having a partner who is closed off mentally and emotionally is exhausting and makes it extremely hard to create trust" misaya said

"i need you to keep up a good conversation. I need someone who can talk to me not as master or mistress but just as me, about ordinary stuff" misaya added

"finally." i happily said

"seems to me you have a lot of things wanted to say. is my status as a master preventing you on doing that or my personality?" misaya asked

"both. you as a master and your personality." i replied

"you should have pride. I need to be with someone who makes an effort with their appearance and behaviour. On a kinkier note, I want a submissive who is proud to be so, I won't be someone's dirty secret. Kink isn't shameful and he should believe in this too." misaya said

"im not ashamed to be your submissive but how about you? you dont mind if your friends, neighbors, relatives or school found out" i asked

"i know what i want and need. there is nothing wrong being a dominant. i am not ashamed of who i am and what i enjoy doing." misaya answered

"i need a man who is feminist and treats me as an equal person; Someone who does not tokenize me for my gender or my preference for a dominant role. I am a person not an object and want to be treated well. can you do that?" misaya asked

"sure" i replied

"that's all for now. i may add more. now that you have heard mine, i want to hear yours. im giving you the opportunity to express while im in good mood." misaya said

"we have the same expectations." i said

"that's disappointing to hear." misaya said

"even if i tell you be gentle with me, i dont think you can with your sadistic nature." i said

crap! my manners.

but i am surprised. she's calm. she's not glaring at me.

"what else?" misaya asked

i need to give her more.

"we should emotionally support each other." i said

"i dont think that's a good idea" misaya answered without hesitation.

both of us are mentally strong. misaya may not be aware of it. she's fragile or should i say vulnerable. even the hardest metal is still brittle.

"those are my concerns for now. i may add more soon" i said

"i see. about the pain i inflict on you. i cant promise i wont inflict you pain. i will always love inflicting pain on others. but i may take consideration of being gentle." misaya said

"i should take my leave. im glad we have this conversation." i said

i grabbed my cigarette and a can of beer. i went to the balcony near my room.

"let's see how things will go and end for us." i said as i watch the whole estate.

deep down. maybe i want more from her.