The girl i once knew to be me.

Feeling

I bet you all have that nummening moment when the tears you just want to have flow just don't escape then all of it is just bottled up. This happened with my favourite pet I really loved him ,he was a beautiful brown ,black and white Jack Russell.He was poisoned by my neighbour instead of grief I felt anger then he was buried and my dad said" so no tears?".Then i said I wasn't sad but I shoved that sorrow so far back that I thought it was gone but early every morning I'd go out into the veranda expecting him to coming wagging his tail with his goffy smile but then I remember he's gone and all of that submerged sadness begins to surface and I just want to run into my Father's arms and let it out but I just go to to my pet's finally resting and spill my guts to him like I had always done."I am so sorry I didn't cry I was too sad .I was afraid that if I let my tear ducts fill and let it all out that I would never stop. I would cry for you,I would cry cause I felt like I left my friends behind .I'd cry for everything that I didn't have time to let go of or even dwell upon but we all just have to shed. Hey that's not funny" I felt him right next to me lightening the mood with his laughter.And I felt slightly soothed within.