giving you my all

chapter 2

Chandra p.o.v
I sat totally still as the preacher preached about how they where in a better place if they was here thats a better place right? because they'll be here with their baby girl I remember her smile I remember his hugs I remember the love they had for each other the love they had for me now look at me no job no house I'm only 17 why I gotta go through this huh its not fair not even a little I miss them like crazy the door to the church opens snapping me out my thoughts and caused me to turn around towards the door to see who came to see my parents I was surprised to see my auntie with a sad expression on her face she searched the church with her eyes not caring that everyone was looking at her she soon laid eyes on me I quickly turned around because she and my mother where twins so seeing her almost made me pass out she walked over their to me and sat beside me after a while she pulled me toward her wrapping her arms around me that's when I let it all out I cried for me I cried for my parents I cried for everybody in the church she whisperd stuff in my ear like "its gonna be alright" "I'm here now" It made me feel better to know that somebody was here for me made me feel loved to know I had someone who was their for me that's all I needed

We headed to the graveyard I was in the limbo actually I was the only one in the limbo since I was the only child and no one wonted to ride with me I guess my friend Lola could have came but I told her that I wonted to be by myself because I didn't won't her to see me cry shes my best friend but some stuff people don't need to see you do it was okay when I did it in the church because that was family the limbo came to a stop and we all sat so they could get the bodies out the car my uncle (auntie husband) paid for them to get buried by each other actually he paid for the whole funeral he's really sweet cause god knows I couldn't do it after about five minutes the body's where all set we each got out our car to say our last goodbyes this is it ....I love you mommy and daddy rest in heaven goodbye I said as I threw the 2 roses down the hole where their caskets lay..

After the burial most of my family decided to go out to eat I wonted to go back home and pack up my stuff I know my auntie didn't come out here just for her sisters funeral she came to get me also and I'm okay with that I mean I only had one friend here so it won't hurt that bad my phone suddenly snapped me out my thoughts I looked at it and seen my best friend Lola was calling me I answerd and put it on speaker so I could finish packing "you okay "yes I'm fine can you stop by here I have to tell you something real important" ya sure she said when I almost was done packing someone came into my room of course it was Lola she sat down on the bed and looked at me with sorrow in her eyes "you don't have to look at me like that" I'm sorry she said "but what was it so important you had to tell me" okay um..Lola I'm moving to Atlanta with my aunt and her husband and their son (cousin)" how come you didn't been tell me about this?" Because I just found out today I don't won't to leave but I'm only 17 I can't take care of myself" she begin to start crying then tears started rolling down my eyes so we where both crying I pulled her in for a hug and we cried on each other until she had to go we agreed we where going to face time and text everyday I'm going to miss her but I gotta keep looking forward thats what my daddy used to always say i is him I miss my mommy too