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So after many attemps of expressing myself through writing in a journal or drawling(which i can't do) , I decided to start a blog. I guess that's what you'd call this right? Well, this is my life, boring, over-rated, and whatever else you choose to think of it.
Instead starting from today, let me give you some background so i don't have to thouroly explain things in my future writings...
So I have a lot of siblings, mostly all younger but one older. After having me, my parents got devorced. They later both got re-married (to different people of corse). My step mom and my dad have four kids while my mom and step dad only have one. My older sister and I are obveously my mother and fathers. I live with my mother and step dad now and have ever since the divorce when i was little. It never really had an effect on me i think because i was too young to remember it when it actually happened. My sister also never really had an issue with it even though she was older. My mothers side of the family is very close in the sence that we see each other A LOT. Like almost everyday a lot. But, we don't really talk about anything but sports, vacationing, and beer. (My mothers side is very Irish...)
My fathers side is close but I hardly see them now-a-days. My mom and dad don't get along very well and don't really like to comunicate and that's probably why. Anyways, although I hardly see them, we're close in the sence I can talk to them about almost anything. They've always been understanding and helpful. I'm not saying my mother isn't im just saying my conversations with my mom are short and are mostly about cleaning the house, babysitting, or what she should make for dinner.
My older sister is now in college which isn't very close to home. I hardly talk to her now that she's been gone for the school year but when she does come home it's like she never left. When we were younger we'd often be bickering or fighting over silly things, but now we're quite nice to each other. She's always been my best friend, even if sometimes we do annoy eachother. I'm upset she's gone to college because now I have to face the troubles of living in this house alone. My sister and I haven't really had deep, meaningful conversations but we could if we had something to talk about. My relationship with her is good and we'll probably be close forever.
My other siblings are still all too young for me to really hangout with so it's hard to say anything deep about my relationship with them. Of corse i love them all and we all get in minimal to no fights. I've never really argued with my dad and stepmoms kids but thats probably because i don't live with them so they're much less annoying. My mom and stepdads kid, Elizabeth, does live with me though, which makes our relationship more describable. Her and I have a typical older to younger sister relationship. Fighting over silly things and getting annoyed with each other. But, we have the same sence of humor so we get along more than we fight.
That pretty much sums up my family life so let me explain to you my friend and social life.
The younger i was, the more "best friends" I had. I went to a Catholic preschool, but kindergarden through 4th grade was all public. After that, I went to a Catholic school where at first I had a lot of friends. But, as we all grew, I matured faster then the others, making me a living, breathing target. I spent 4 years in hell on earth. Which is ironic because it was a Catholic school. The teachers and parents did little to nothing to back me up while i was there. I never really got into fights with any of them though. Either because i was afraid to or i was afraid of the consequences. It definantly wasn't because I was too smart or grown up to do it. Anyways, after awhile i started to believe what they would tell me i was. So, i became what they all made me up to be. Something like Easy A. But, that didn't help me at all. It was probably the worst thing i could have done. The teasing and name calling only got worse, but at the time, maybe i deserved it since i gave into them. I was lost and alone, no friends, and nobody to talk to about what was actualy going on. Until, one of my old friends from my public school called me and invited me to hangout with a group of old friends. I was iffy about it but i decided to go. None of them knew anything about my recent life so i thought itd be refreshing. That it was. We all got along like we did in gradeschool. Then, the next day the friend that called me, Christine, invited me to her house. I glady went, and we instantly became best friends again. She treated me like a friend, and i think that was all i really needed to realize that what the kids at my school said about me wasnt true and didnt matter at all. Since then, Christine and i have been BEST friends. Like see each other EVERYDAY best friends. She helped me get away from my troubles at school and even made me into a better person. We of corse at the time had issues neither of us told each other, but we mostly knew everything about us. Honestly, I'm not sure if I'd still be here today without her. Maybe it was fate that she called me when she did.
