Until The End

Last Song

Now that you're gone, I always hoped that you'd stay.
By my side, always as part of me.
I guess I was wrong.
I can no longer feel your warmth when I hug an image of you.
I want to hug the real you once more before you disappeared forever.
Sadly, my naive wish will never come true.
Our wish that we once shared, our wish that we once almost achieved, is forever gone.
There is no more you and me.... there now is only me and me alone.
The lonely me wants to join you in the other world, but I know that is not what you would want.
The happy you wants me to live my life to the fullest, but if you're not here, then I do to want a life like that.
Please return to me.
Even if you are no longer human, I will still love and treasure you.
Please....
I regret the choice I had back then.
Seeing you lying on your bed, even though you were at your last moment, you smiled.
You told me with your dying breath that this smile was for me.
It was meant for me and me alone.
Thinking back to this, I cry.
A disgusting and ugly cry.
I cry and cry and cry and cry.
Emotions surge up in me like a typhoon.
Then I am dry.
No longer able to cry, I lose my sense of direction.
And I lose my mind.
I throw pictures of us together on the floor.
I laugh like a mad man.
I look at the shards of glass glistening like diamonds.
I stare at them through my now empty eyes that have no more emotions in them.
I am lost....and I am gone.
Then I falls down on my knees, ignoring the burning pain of the glass pieces.
I stare silently at nothing, then something.
The picture.
It was you and me.
I picked it up.
On the back, we wrote each wrote a line.
I wrote "together"
You wrote "forever".
In a long while, I smile.
Then a single words flies out of my mouth.
"Us".
The message, the answer I was looking for for a long time appeared in my mind.
"Us".
So together we shall be.
Not separated, but as us.
I gave her my heart.
Now my heart that was embedded in one song, and one song I created only for her.
Last Song
The melody flowed smoothly as my fingers did a dance on the keys.
My deep voice mixing in with the wonderful noises that this instrument makes.
Each key I press, each part of me I show to her.
Wherever she might be, I will always love her.
And she will always love me.
Walking around aimlessly by myself,
Breathing in a faint sigh, my breath turns white.
Seasons change and in this fleeting season...
My tears fall for no reason.
Even now, I still love you.
Falling sadness transforms into pure white snow.
I'm always looking at the sky above me,
Before this body disappears.
I want to reach the wish I have now.
Please hold me tight one more time.
How many times have we not understood and hurt each other?
But even at those times, we were still gentle.
Engraved one the ring that you suddenly gave back to me,
Was the promise that will never come true.
Even now, I still remember...
These far off thoughts are just brilliant flashes in my memory.
I wanted to be next to you.
Even though I can't see you anymore, I will always be right next to you.
I never want you to change.
I can't erase the last tears that you showed me.
In your heart, if I disappear along with these snowflakes,
I want to bloom in your heart once again.
Don't forget the warmth of us being close together, and hugging.
Even if you love someone else,
I will never let go of the memory of when I heard your voice.
I want to fall into a deep sleep.
Continuously falling sadness turns into pure white snow.
I'm always looking at the sky above me.
Before this body disappears,
I want to reach the wish I have now.
Please hold me tight one more time!
Please hold me tight one more time....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Slant = the english lyrics to Last Song by Gackt
Please comment if I should do more of these kinds of stories.^.^