***Jake's POV***
Walking to school seemed to last for hours. It's only a 10 minute walk, but walking with only Hannah and Lewi didn't make it any better, I felt a bit like a third wheel since they were chatting and holding hands and doing cute coupley stuff. It also seemed to last for hours thanks to all the thoughts going through my head..
I need to tell her.. I will tell her... I just need to man up, stop being a wimp like Hannah said. If she really cares about me, in a friend way, she wouldn't let it ruin our friendship...would she?
I heard Hannah giggle and looked up at her and Lewi as he kissed her on the cheek and wrapped his arm around her and she held his hand over her shoulder.
We could be like that, me and Jess. That could be us if she feels the same..god I hope she feels the same..
I was deep in my thoughts about what could happen, playing different little scenarios in my head when I tripped on a curb, I looked up and saw hell on earth, otherwise known as high school. I looked around for Jess but couldn't see her, I got my phone out of my pocket to text her and ask where she was when I saw our messages from yesterday. Shit. I told her to meet me at my place, I thought I said at school! For fuck sake, I was too busy worrying about what was going to happen that I wasn't thinking straight, I'm in way too deep, I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't feel the same..
Jess💜💁🏻 - 8:16am: dude, where are you? Your mum said you've already left.. x
Me - 8:17am: yeh.. I'm at school.. I'm so sorry, I just haven't been thinking straight lately.. x
Jess💜💁🏻 - 8:17am: I can tell. x
What did she mean by that? How could she tell?
Me - 8:18am: can we meet round the back of the bike shed instead? x
Jess💜💁🏻 - 8:18am: you do know how wrong that sounds right? But yeh sure😁 x
Me - 8:18am: I ain't gonna do anything don't worry.. 😉 x
I put my phone in my pocket and giggled to myself a little before making my way to the bike shed.
"What a loner"
"Gayyyy"
"What a little freak, did you see him get beat up at his own party?"
"Did you see him in town the other day? Playing his shitty music with his shitty band"
I swallowed hard and walked a bit faster as I heard them walking towards me.
"Oi fag, where are you going?" I turned around reluctantly to be faced with Josh, the schools biggest bully, and all his little minions that follow him around.
"I-I'm going to meet someone...near the bike shed.." I managed to stutter out, he was taller than me, therefore I had to look up at him as he smirked down at me.
"To meet someone? Your boyfriend?" They all sniggered.
"No. I don't have a boyfriend. I'm not gay. And even if I was, it's not something to make fun of." They've always thought I'm gay, just because my best friend is a girl. 'A gay's a girl's best friend' they would always say.
"Whatever you say you little gay boy." He said, before leading his minions away with him.
"I'm not gay!!" I shouted after them and ran to the bike shed, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes but ignored it, but they soon came streaming down my face. I sat with my back against the back of the bike shed with my knees brought up to my chest and my head in my hands. I needed to sort myself out before Jess came, she couldn't see me like this..
•••
After about 5 minutes of trying to calm myself down I had just about brought my breathing back to normal when I heard footsteps coming towards me. I kept my head down thinking it would be Josh, coming back for round two of teasing.
"Jake..?" I looked up when I heard her sweet voice. I wiped any remaining tears from my cheeks and sniffed and got up, brushing myself off.
"Are you ok..?"
"Me? Yeh I'm fine..I just...I tripped and er..fell.." I'm terrible at thinking on the spot.
"Right...well, you wanted to talk..?"
"Oh yeh.." I stepped closer to her, I lifted my hands slightly and thought about holding her hands in mine, but I decided against it and just fiddled with my own fingers. "I um..I love..." This was harder than I thought.. "I love...your phone charger. It's really good, I borrowed it last night because I couldn't find mine and it's really good and I love it and er..yeh.." She giggled slightly as I handed her her charger.
"I guess it's alright.."
"It's great.." I faked a smile and the bell for the start of the day went off, I've never been so happy to hear it.
"Cmon then," Jess turned on her heels and I walked beside her. "I'll just ignore how weird you've been acting recently and the fact that Hannah said you have a crush on me ok?" She whispered slightly, even though no one was really in hearing distance from us.
"Ok.." I smiled slightly, she seemed to be ok with it, I just needed to grow a pair and tell her that it's true..
•A/N• Sorry I haven't updated when I promised too but had to come home from my holiday early because my brother fractured part of his back😁 but here's the update I wrote whilst on holiday, poor Jakey. Big mean old Josh is being nasty to him. (Spoiler alert: it may or may not be Josh Schofield..👀)
