A/N I do not own any of the lyrics that appear.
Once we were out , I went to get a drink , all that talking made me thirsty.I went to find Dan , and as soon as I did he said “You haven't talked much today" But he didn't look at me , his eyes were fixed onto the floor. “I've been thinking" I state, “About?" He asks , I hesitate before answering “Just stuff". “Okay" and with that he left.I saw Dan's bag , and there were a few papers sticking out the top . Should I ? No , don't! Come on , do it. My thoughts had a battle in which the one telling me to do it won.I picked up one of the pages and the three lines on it , ‘do you remember when we first met at the train station?’ That was the best moment of my life , well second best , first was when Dan asked if I wanted to move in with him.‘Do you remember when you told me you loved me in the snow' Yeah of course I remember that and it took forever to actually say it and I was sick after. ‘Do you remember the time when I kissed you on the manchester ride' Oh my actual God. I take back what I said earlier , this was the best and worse moment of my life.It was only on the cheek and at the time he did it , it was as if it was meant as a joke , I practically melted when he did that. I put that page back and picked up another this one read: ‘I had no friends till I was eighteen , you saved me.’Wait what if this isn't for me , who am I kidding it's deffinetly not.I put the papers back and turned around and as soon as I saw Dan leaning on the doorframe, looking at me. “How long have you been there ” I ask. “Long enough to know you enjoy invading my personal stuff” he said grabbing his bag , he started walking out but I grabbed his shoulder, he stopped dead and looked at the floor , I studied his face , or at least what I could see of it , I swear I can see tears, If he is crying , it's my fault , I made him cry oh my God no , I'm horrid. As I though this , he shook me of his shoulder and walked out without taking his eyes of the floor.Great , that's just great.Now look what you've done.“OH JUST SHUT UP” I screamed at myself and banged my head against the wall , hoping it would make the thoughts stop.“Shut up , shut up shut UP!!!” I carried on , now not as much in a screaming manner , more of a whisper cry manner.I turned around and leaned against the wall , slowly sliding down until I was sitting on the floor. Once I was I looked up at the ceiling , closed my eyes and sighed.I still had tears running down my face , and they weren't about to stop.
