I get home drained and hoping today was a dream. I walk straight to my room not even looking to see if my momma or brother was home and plopped on my bed. Pulled my phone out and opened me and Miles text thread.
"Wyd" the last message I sent to him and never got a response. I hate this nigga. I can't have his baby at all. I sit and think about what I'm going to say. After 30 minutes, I sent a picture of the test and a message "Don't worry, I'm not keeping it."
I locked my phone and shut my eyes trying to act like I'm going to sleep and I hear *ding*. It's Miles, he texted back immediately.
"If it's mine you are keeping it, if it's Justin's idc what you do"
"Nigga you know it's yours and I'm not keeping it tf"
I texted back. My eyes getting watery, not because I'm sad. I'm mad as fuck. All this time he's been avoiding me and now he wants to respond and then assume I'm just out here fucking. I'm mad.
"I'm coming to see you later so we can talk" he texted back. I didn't respond because I know he's going to try to convince me to keep it.
*Later that night*
I hear a knock on my window. A specific knock, that only Miles do. I rolled my eyes and rolled over to see him smiling at me. I opened the window.
"What?" I loudly whispered
"Damn, you not gonna invite a nigga in I said we need to talk" he said with a smirk. Is he enjoying this?
I open the window some more and move out the way, he climbs through and his tall ass hovers over me, gazing in my eyes.
"You don't miss a nigga?"
"No and if it wasn't for this baby we wouldn't even be here."
"Oh yeah cause you been all over that square ass nigga justin"
"Shh nigga" I whispered
"You getting too loud in my momma house"
I lock the door before sitting on my bed
"Now what we need to talk about?"
He sits next to my, rubbing on my leg. I'm feeling that feeling again, something I once knew as love, but then I look at his face, the same lying ass face I trusted a few weeks ago, now we here.
"I miss you Jordi"
Him calling me Jordi was weird only Monique called me that but I brushed it off.
"Miles this is not about you missing me, this is about what we gone do"
"We gone be together" he pulled my face closer to his and kissed my lips softly.
I pulled my face away from him
"I don't want that and I don't want this baby."
He stands up and glares at me.
"You gonna have my baby and we are gonna be together, I want you Jordan and only you, I was scared to commit but now I'm all yours" he stopped and touched my stomach. In that moment I actually believed him, I actually thought he wanted me and the baby. His eyes were watering as he locked eyes with me.
"If we gone do this nobody needs to know I'm pregnant and you gotta leave these hoes alone."
He nodded his head "and that bitch ass nigga Justin need to get out the way too." He added on, I rolled my eyes and looked over at the window, he looked over to see what I was looking at.
"Damnnnn you putting me out, you don't want to cuddle"
"Bye Miles" I chuckled. He grabbed my face and pecked me one more time before heading out "I love you" he said before I closed the window.
It's been a couple weeks since that talk with Miles. We have been good and he's been getting everything I need. I still haven't told my momma. I don't know how ima going to climb that mountain but I'm not ready for it yet.
I check my phone to look at Monique's location. She's real close to Miles house. I text her.
"Ouuu bitch go spy on Miles for me"
After that I go check on my brother, a few hours past and I realize Monique still hasn't texted me back, she has been acting a little weird ever since I told her me and Miles had that talk but I know she's been dealing with Keron so her time is probably occupied. I call Miles to check up on him.
"Hello"
"Yoo, wassup"
Yoo, wassup? Yeah it's a bitch over there.
"Nothing just calling to see what you doing, I haven't talked to you since school."
"Yeah I been helping my mom with something can I holler at you later"
HOLLER AT ME LATER?! I said in my head but I calmly responded
"Yeah I lov- "
He hangs up before I can even respond.
Oh, this nigga got me fucked up.
I jump out of bed and throw my crocs on. Do he think I'm stupid? It's one thing to have hoes, but to disrespect me behind a hoe is crazy work. I start walking towards Miles house which wasn't far. I text Monique
"THIS NIGGA GOT ME FUCKED UP"
I didn't expect her to respond I knew she was with Keron at this point, she get around that nigga and forget about her bestie. I'm mad all the way to Miles house and as we know his momma not home. I get there and open the door. All the lights are off. "Good"
I say in my head cause I don't want nobody to see me coming. I creep to Miles room and as I get closer I hear music... what I thought was music. I see the door crack, it was not music, far from it. It was Miles fucking a bitch. After all that lying he did. Saying he wants me and wants this baby here he is fucking another BITCH. He convinced me to keep this baby and I trusted him AGAIN.
"Bet."
Before I rushed in determine to beat both they ass I didn't care who the bitch was, when I rushed in I scared both of them, causing them both to look at me. I looked at Miles and started to scream
"YOU REALLY DOING THIS AGAIN WITH ANOTHER THOT ASS BITCH?"
I looked in the girls face.
It's....Monique.
