•Lose Yourself • a Harry Styles Fanfiction•

Chapter 1

I was leaning my head against the cold car window and thinking about all the things that had happend. I just couldn't believe how things have changed.

We planned to move to london for a long time, but I always thought that was something my mum told me to give me hope and make me a little happier,but now we were sitting in our car and driving to our new house in london. This was an enormous step for us. With 'us' I mean , my mother and me . We used to live in New York in a small flat, and this time with 'we', I mean my mum , me and my dad.

Its quite hard for me to think about him, or talk about him. I just never understood him. He was hot-tempered , which was understandable for an Italian, but he always seemed so icy against me and my mum. which wasn't likely for an Italian.For my 17-years I hadn't seen him being nice to us. It was all just a show for the neighbours and other people.He always seemed like the "nice guy next door", which he surely wasn't. He drank a lot and with the time I lost all my trust to him, or to every other guy.

We drove down the highway and I was so tired. I had a long plane flight behind me and I just couldn't wait to arrive.It was a cold night as I watched the moon follow our car.London was so much colder than New York in end August.

I drifted to sleep. I had a dream about my parents. All happened in our old flat in New York. I was lying on my bed in my room as I heard my parents fighting...again. I felt something in my stomach grow, it was anger. I suddenly felt very strong.I opened the door to the living room,where I saw my dad hitting my mum. I shouted:"NOO! DAD! STOP THAT! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!?"I knew I would regret it afterwards. My dad stopped and looked at me angrily.He came closer. So we stood there face to face, eye to eye. He stopped a moment, looked me deep in the eye and then.. he punched me. I saw a strong white light and everything happened in slow-motion. I only could recognise fizzy sillouettes as I was about to fall to the floor.

Shortly before, I woke up with tears streaming down my face. I had that kind of dreams so many times. My mum looked at me and asked:"Is everything alright,Mika ?" I didn't answer, because I didn't want her to hear how weak my voice was. I just thought:"Nothing is ok, I am leaving this behind me now!" And with every meter we moved apart from New York, it felt like we moved apart from our problems. Leaving it all behind...

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Hey guys, that was my first chapter, i hope you liked it. :D im sorry if I made any mistakes ^^ I would like you to feel free and comment,tell me what could be better,and if you liked it please vote. :D