The voyage of dreams

DEAR DIARY

1ST JANUARY 2012 <

TODAY its new year  and i dont know what to resolve this year erm.. but all i know is this year im not gonna be a troublesome to my parents.because parents are the only ones who support me with my dream jobs(almost all of them are useless 'from parents point of view'). They want me to study but me . I want to achieve everything ive ever dreamt of . My dad says that im a jack of all trades but a master of none but what i feel is i can master all of them . All i need is support ,lesser distractions like social media.. but they are necessary to become famous so im not gonna deactivate my account . But as it is said that gadgets are necessary evils.. they are necessary that we cant even imagine our lives without it and have no idea how would we do without them but they do have loads and loads of false impacts . As mentioned 'distraction' ...

Today after years .. this new year is going to be a fruitful one (hope so ✌) All my past years ,they have at last given me sorrows . Sorrows like .. $money loss ,memory loss etc..
Two years back i lost my complete memory.. and it was really difficult to cope up with today's generation.. and my treatment to cure my ailment costed billions. Which my parents sacrifised just for me . They took loans and are still left with a bit of its debt but are almost paid. All i am today is just because of my parents.

My friends left me alone while i was in the hospital fighting with life and death.. and today i heard to a song by michal jakson. Its titled as they dont really care about us. And each and every word just got fit into my life..word by word and now i have understood that no one in this world is our well wisher, cause all are selfish but the only people who really do care for me is my parents .
Previous year , my parents came to know about my crush. (Boyfriend but they dint know that he is my boyfriend but knew that he is my crush) i told them that he is my boyfriend . So they called mac up and said him that he had dinner at our residence that night. My heart was pounding like but i knew that hey would tell my parents the truth. But what happened was just the opposite. He did not accept our relation and said that i was the one who expressed my feelings , who forced him but he was the one.. . He lied . And now i have decided to only trust my parents .. no friends ,no relatives .. just no one .. . I just hope this year goes the way i want it to .. wishing a prosperous year ahead 
Good night diary