His Secret

Chapter 19

Xavier's P.O.V.

As I looked at her she looked a little scared I don't want her to be scared I hate when shes scared I hate it absolutely hate it I hate when I can't control the monster inside of me after I got done looking at her I run outside and just unleash it let it run let it free. As I run in the forest I feel guilty and everything built up inside me just needs to be let out, all I can see in my head is her horrifying face that's makes me feel like a monster I totally forgot about Ryan I just left him there with my mate. I got to go back at sometime.

Jessica's P.O.V.

As I look at him run out, I saw Ryan get back up and walk towards me so I ran back in the bathroom and locked the door. Why can't he get through his thick head I don't like him, I'm over him, as I get back to reality I hear Ryan say "Oh come on out I won't hurt you just a little bit maybe angel your my angel MY ANGEL. Then I hear some familiar voice " No she's MINE" I knew it was Xavier as I kept hearing rustling around the room I was scared too walk out but I got the courage to unlock the door and turn the knob slowly and then swing it open like I always do and they were gone no one in sight oh my god Xavier might kill Ryan I have to find Xavier not for Ryan's sake for Xavier's I know he won't be able to handle the blood on his hands especially after the baby dang I miss that baby as I got back in focus I felt a wet tear slip out of my eye and on the floor.

The only thing I can do right now is mind link that's the good thing with marks you can mind link whoever and whenever you want, as I try to he doesn't answer he blocks it of course he does.

I can't do anything because he blocks my mind link I can't do anything my fiance could kill him I don't care about Ryan but I do care about Xavier and I know he won't be able to hand all the blood and being a called and thinking he is a cold blooded killer I won't let that happened to him he doesn't deserve it.

What to do, what to do, there is only thing I can do hurt myself I know it sounds crazy but if he feels me hurt he'll come back because it will affected him too.
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As I cut my wrist and then my leg it hurt but Xavier will feel it and come back.
1 hour

He didn't come back I was bleeding out maybe this wasn't a good idea I became numb I couldn't feel anything I then fell into darkness.

I woke up hurting so much I looked at where it was hurting it was all bandaged and so my leg, I looked up and there was an old lady she smiled warmly and said "That wasn't a good idea was it" she kinda had a Australian accent it was dull cause she was old but you could hear it " Um.... Yeah I guess not" she chuckled "I'm Xavier's maid I used too be is nanny but I'm kinda of his mother figure after his past I took care of him, and he told me too check on you through mind link because he felt something wrong in his gut and usually he's right so I walked as fast as I could up here and I saw you laying on the floor, I thought you were dead but Xavier got here seconds later checked your pulse and said you were alive whispered something in your ear and told me too bandage you up and then left again I dont know where he is gosh that boy one day is gonna give me a heart attack" she said in her Australian accent I chuckled " Yeah me too, I heard what he said in my sleep when I was out he said I'm sorry I love you and left" I was confused why would he say that. The nanny smiled and said " He'll be back he loves you too much I can see it in his eyes when talks about you and when you talk about him you say it in soo much love" I smiled she was right I love him. I will day a million times she's right I do love him more than anyone else could. She looked and smiled get some sweetie maybe you'll wake up and he will be right there beside she said walked out the door and turning off my light I noticed that was dark out already gosh I'm exhausted I should get some sleep.

I can't sleep I mumble and grumble sighing I can't sleep without Xavier here I mean I can't do anything without him he's all I have. Then my phone rings I thought it might be Xavier so I grab the phone and answer it as quick as possible "Hello" I say "Hey" it was Xavier I knew it right away I sigh "Oh my god I love you" he says "I love you too" immediately back with so much lust and love I can feel even if he's not right here I can still feel it. "I can feel you couldn't sleep I could feel it" I sigh I couldn't I sigh again "Where are you" he chuckles and says "Turn around" I do as he says and he's right there in my window staring st me with so much love I hang up the phone and jump into his arms, I started crying and so did he "I thought I lost you" he sobs a little more "I love you babe you'll never lose me ever" I hug him more and he lays both of us down so gentle and plays with my hair and he then whispers "Fall asleep I'll always be right here" I agreed too what he said and fell asleep with him playing with hair gently.