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The Breakup

"What?! you're breaking up with me?!" I froze and went under in a state of shock, while we're having a conversation over the phone.

"Yes,I'm breaking up with you Jas." He said calmly,without even showing a midget emotions in his voice.

"But why?! Ok naman tayo ah. Lately wala naman tayong pinag awayan, and I don't think we have a problem in our relationship at all." sabi ko habang ramdam na ramdam ko nang namumuo na ang mga luha sa mata ko. I don't really wanna cry but I just can't help it it seems like my heart is tearing apart in to pieces.

"I can't feel any sparks any more, and It's not about you Jas, it's me.Let's just end this I don't wanna hurt you any longer."

"Sparks?Just for the sparks?You'll gonna gave it all up? Lahat nang pinagsamahan natin?! Through good times and badtimes?What the heck Jake! We can still work this out if we want to, but how dare you to easily gave all up? Tang ina naman Jake!" Damang-dama ko na ang pagsabog nang puso ko. Hindi ko na kaya, ang sakit-sakit na talaga.I can't believe this is happening to me. I love him, I really do and I know he knows that, but how can he shatter my heart into small pieces

"Matagal narin akong walang nararamdaman,so it's about to end this Jas,let's just move on."

Para akong sinagasaan nang isang train sa sinabi niya. Para akong sinaksak ng pa ulit-ulit sa puso. Para akong binuhusan nang napakamalamig na tubig.  How could he say those words. How could he broke my heart. How could he!

"Move on? MOVE ON?! Easy for you to say, but how can I move on Jake! How can I move on when I'm madly...so in loved with you?!! Why is this so easy for you Jake!?"

"Just let me go Jas,Just accept the truth. Just accept the fact that we are not really meant to be.I have to go,Goodbye." then he hang up.

I can't barely believe this shit. What in the world just happened?

Para akong binagsakan nang langit at lupa. 

I feel so rejected and unwanted.

How could he do this to me? After all we've been through he just gave up like that. How could he broke my fucking heart and ended our two year relationship that easily?!

Walang hiya siya! napaka walang hiya niya!Lahat ginawa ko na sa kanya pero bakit ang dali-dali niyang binaliwala ang lahat.T_________T

1 week later------>

I don't have enough sleep,I think I didn't slept at all. Parang boung mag damag araw-araw iyak lang ako nang iyak. Iniiyakan ang taong nirereject naman ako.

Gusto ko siyang kausapin ulit,pero everytime tinatawagan ko siya nire-reject niya.Ganun na ako ka walang halaga sa kanya ngayon. Why does he let me feel like an idiot waiting for him to come back? T_______T

Wala na akong kwenta sa kanya.

Isa na akong basura. A garbage that was thrown away in a dump site. Yep! I can compare myself to that.

I fucking hate this feeling. The feeling of being rejected, unwanted and useless. I knew na darating ang araw na'to. Na masasaktan ako nang sobra-sobra. I shouldn't break the wall I created and built around my heart.

I shouldn't let him in.

Sana hindi ko nalang siya nakilala. Sana hindi ko nalang siya minahal. Siguro hindi ako masasaktan nang ganito.

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I'm Jasmine May. Yes Indeed! "May" is my family-name. It sounds like not a family name, am I right? Well, sort of parang magkarugtong lang kasi ang Jasmine May kaya in the first thought parang first name ko lang siya. Anyways, to be clear and concise. I am Jasmine S. May. "S" stands for Stratford, the maiden surname of my Mom.

I'm 19 yrs. old, and studying in a prestigious University of Stratford in which owned and runs by the family of my Mother.

At the moment, my parents are not here in the Philippines and I am quite used to it. They are both in London handling our businesses. Pero okay lang, I do understand the situation. The situation in where I need to be all alone by myself and be strong for myself.

Lumaki akong mag isa, and through the years all alone and just seeing my parents once, twice or thrice a year, seeing them in skype or even hearing their voices over the phone I learned to be strong, to the extent na hinding hindi ako nagpapatalo at nagpapadaig nang ibang tao.

It actually runs from my blood. Being a Stratford and a May always driven me to rule. Actually ako yung tipong babae na Bitch with a class, may pagka psycho rin haha and it is really my habit to threaten people, to be vicious and violent.

As far as I can remember, mailang ulit na akong napatawag sa prisento. Most of the cases they file are Assault, Physical Injuries and blah,blah,blah stuffs. But I always cleaned up my mess thanks to my Tito Bernard, my Mom's brother. Ilang ulit na rin akong napa guidance office sa school, pinatawag nang dean but they can't just kick me out. Our family owns it.

But one day, the brat Jasmine vanished when she met Jake. Her first love and also her first FUCKING DAMN HEARTBREAK. But I guess it is time to bring back my old self. After all Jake left, because of the fucking sparks which he can't feel anymore! Let's see what happened next.

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