You know you've hit rock bottom when
you're too depressed to get out of bed
but anxiety tells you that if you don't you'll loose all your friends
depression makes you too sad to even want to do homework
but anxiety tells you if you don't you'll fail
depression makes you not want to go to work
anxiety tells you if you don't you'll be broke and become more of a failure than you already are
In your mind... Depression fights anxiety.
Anxiety fights depression.
No one wins
No one looses
There's no winning
Never was
Never will be
Life becomes a joke
You walk the streets at night eventually so you don't have to deal with seeing the same 4 walls
you walk the streets at night because it provids a sense of comfort
that anything anyone does to harm you won't be nearly as bad as whar you do to yourself
drugs become a way of life
vodka replaces water
the streets replace sleep
giving yourself to people because you want to feel something
because you feel empty
death
overdose
cutting
starving
burning
harming
anything you do can't make it so you feel
so you can fill that whole of numbness
the numbness where your heart has been ripped out of your still breathing body
these are the special people
we tend to group together for some sort of comfort
no one knows
no one understands
the counselor last weak talking to the girl who tried killing herself asking
have you tried being happy?
as if she had a choice
you really think if she had a choice to be happy she'd choose depression
as if anyone has a choice..
