Five Seconds Of Summer Imagines (5SOS)

GoodByes *Luke*

"No, I'm leaving." I asserted, repacking my bag after she clawed to pull everything out. My clothes were scattered on the floor as I thought to forgo them temporarily in favor of my phone chargers.

"Luke, please stop listen to me!" she cried, tugging at my arm, pulling me towards her back to our room. God, even the thought of it makes me flinch. "Luke. You have to listen to me!"

"I don't have to do anything!" I snapped. She cringed away at my words. I didn't mean to hurt her; I just couldn't bear the thought of this right now.

"Lu-" Her voice broke. "Luke I am so sorry. I-it wasn't on purpose, I swear it wasn't." Tears stormed across her eyes, threatening to break across her face.

I couldn't take her words. Of course it was an accident. Alcohol, so much of it allowed the lines to blur. Names were said. Vision was spotty at best. Even after it all, even after considering- I just-I couldn't bear to be around Allison right now. Not knowing everything. Not like this.

I pulled my arm away and got down on the floor to stuff my clothes in my bag and get out. She doted over my bag, taking what she could out when I wasn't looking.

"Luke, please you can't leave me like this! It wasn't my fault. Not all of it at least!" The last words struck me harder than anything else. She whimpered, wrapping her arms across my torso, bringing my body back into hers, her face nuzzling between my shoulder blades. "I would never hurt you like that on purpose."

I stared straight ahead, the words escaping bitter and heartbroken in a whisper. "And yet, you hurt me anyways." I took a few steps forward with my bag in hand, some contents left on the floor. "I'll call you."

Her arms clung to me tighter. Her words stuttered in tight breaths as she nuzzled her forehead into my back. "You won't. Not this time."

"Allison-" I stopped walking. She was right. I did want to call, but I had no words to say to her. I wanted everything to be alright. I want to tape it all back together and work everything out. I want to be with her, with Allison, with my girlfriend who took my ticks good and bad, the person who iced my wounds and kissed my forehead when I got in the bar fight (after lecturing me that fighting was wrong), the girl who woke me up with a blow job on our anniversary that I still daydream about. I want to be with that girl, but maybe she isn't that girl. "I can't stay here." I admitted. "I just can't."

"Then we can leave." She rubbed her nose in my shirt, looking up towards the back of my head. "I don't want to be alone here, Luke"

Her voice was so fragile. Her tone was walking on eggshells and I know it took everything in her to keep so composed, but there was some part of me that wouldn't allow me to be the knight in shining armor today. Some little part wanted to twist the knife, it wanted her to burn. And that little part was so furiously intent on controlling me, that when I let that little part take over even just for a second it destroyed everything when it let the words "Then you should call Ashton, again." slip from my lips.

She jumped back, arms no longer touching me. "You- You can't mean that Luke.."

"I do." Funny how those same words used to be something different to us: a one-day-type promise. One day she'll wear a white dress and say them and i'll say them back and my mom will be proud and there would be candles, I'd be in a suit and we'd have a nice wedding in Sydney, but today they mean something quite different.

I meant them. I meant them more than I could bear.

"Luke it was only onc-."

"Don't lie to me anymore!" I burst, my voice as much as a cry as it was a shout. "It wasn't once."

She stepped farther back. "Lu-."

"Was it?" I spat, unable to stop myself. The words flew like daggers and stung my tongue as I rubbed salt in our wound. "Tell me the truth, Allison!"

"I am so sorry. I-"

"You what?!" I cried, feeling my face burn crimson in a mix of hatred and humiliation. "What? Didn't think I would care that you fucked him!? Didn't care that another man had you like I did!?"

"He didn't! Luke, he didn't have me like you did!" She cried tears rolling down her cheek, as she started toward me.

"No, of course not. He was better wasn't he?" I stared into her eyes, willing her to tell me the truth for once since this conundrum started, willing her to end it, willing her to let me go.

"Of course he wasn't, Luke!Luke, you're my one!" she whispered, her arm draped around my neck pulling me close to the body which i previously so feverishly desired.

"Obviously not." I uttered, not breaking her gaze as I waited for the truth. "How long has this been going on, Allison?"

"It won't help you." she said, pulling away.

"Nothing will at this point." I said backing towards the door with my bag still in hand.

"I want you to stay." She said, hands together as she strugggled to keep her composure while I turned the knob on our door with a click.

"You want a lot of things, love." I quipped walking out of what used to be our apartment. "Goodbye, my love."

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