A bunch of short stories

Johndave sadstuck

Everything around you is white. White walls, white bedding, white floors. Honestly though, it's your own fault that you're here. Well, and your dad's but you don't blame him for the fact that you tried to kill yourself. Why would you? He had nothing to do with everyone at school who gave you those stupid looks. With the pity in Jade's eyes when you walk into class alone or the sadness in Rose's. Your dad can control the pity in his eyes anymore than Dave could control dying. Anymore than you could prevent dragging a blade along your hip night after night.

You'd been getting better, for a while, with Dave's help. He would hold onto your razors, he would stay on the phone with you until 3 am in the morning when you finally fell asleep, he would do everything and anything it would take to help you. And then he died.

They say it was an accident, that Dave and his Bro were just goofing around on the roof when the sword slipped into his stomach and shattered his spine. Bro seemed pretty broken up about it, but not broken enough to show up for Dave's funeral. You know he didn't mean to kill Dave. You also know it wasn't an accident. Bro had always abused Dave. They'd always fought on the roof with swords and Dave would end up beaten and bloody because how was he meant to defeat the person teaching him.

He couldn't.

It hit Rose the hardest, seeing as they were related, but you kept it longer. She'd gotten over herself, over Dave's death, in a little over a year. Jade took less time. You'd been torn up over his death for nearly two years now. You wanted to see him again, bad. You wanted to tell him. But you can't.

You'd stopped believing in ghosts after two months of waiting around the Strider's apartment building for Dave. He never showed. Once Bro moved out you had to stop waiting around there but you'd stopped caring. Dave was dead and he wasn't coming back, not even as a ghost.

You'd tried to go see him. To die and be with him again. But it didn't work. You'll never see Dave again.

And that definitely isn't okay.