dear heartbreaker

one

dear heartbreaker: 

i fell apart the moment you put your hands on me. 

i should have known, really. they told me about you - the drifter, the wanderer, the lost-and-still-not-found wild girl who turned whatever she touched into ash. they warned me. and my heart, god, my heart screamed for me to walk away, to forget your name and delete your number from my phone. 

but i didn't care - the way you looked at me was enough to silence the alarms going off. 

i did this to myself. at least, that's what you said, right before you walked out the door, never even looking back to see me aching on the right side of the wrong bed. you got what you wanted - a good fuck. that was all i was worth to you. 

you were wrong, heartbreaker. you did this to me. you broke me into a million pieces - and i'm done apologizing for the way you ruined me.