Emergency

One ~ Perrie

I couldn't draw myself away from my own reflection. For once, I feel beautiful. For once, I like what I see. The dress was gorgeous, white and floral, my two favorite things.

"I knew you would love it, I refused to leave the store without buying it for you." I felt my mom's hands rest on my bare shoulders.

"Thank you." I smiled at her reflection. 

In this moment, I smiled a true smile. She still loved me, she still wants me. I was wrong about her, how dare I doubt her. 

"Are we just going to stand here all day, looking at our reflections?" She jokingly squeezed my shoulders, and disappeared from the mirror.

I sighed. I been here so long, this place almost felt like my mom. Everyone here felt like, a family. A weird, crazy, loving family.

"I'm ready, I just have to tell Chaz goodbye." I managed to pry away from the mirror, and tried to scurry out the door, just to have my mom halt me in my own steps.

"I talked to Dr.Ken, and he said it would be best if you didn't say goodbye to her." 

She made me bite the inside of my lip, I knew if I didn't tell her goodbye that she would feel betrayed. I can't just abandon her like this. Chaz was my only friend in this place, well my only true friend ever. She stood by me, and did not see me as everyone saw me as. She only seen me as Periwinkle Hawthorne. And I only seen her as Charlotte Zills, Chaz. I gave her that nickname. I combined Charlotte + Spaz = Chaz.

"Please mom, she's only down the hall. She wanted me to-"

"She had a meltdown this morning because you were leaving, and she wasn't." She cut me off, and moved me slightly away from the door, "Dr.Ken warned me it would be dangerous if you seen her, she's not herself at the moment.

Chaz is bi-polar, the worst case. She is a danger to anyone, or so they say. She never was a danger to me, and I never feared her to be. I watched her attack the workers, and other patients, but she never harmed me or made me feel uncomfortable for one second. The fact that she's prohibited form seeing me is unusual. 

"Don't worry sweetie, you can still write to her." She gave a quick reassuring hug. "Let's get out of here, huh? I have a surprise for you at home."

First the dress, and now another surprise? I didn't think she cared this much. I thought she would've picked me up, and dropped me off at home in my bedroom. Yet, she's trying. She's letting me back into her life. 

"Can we grab something to eat first? I skipped breakfast." I asked as we exit my bedroom, no, the room.

I glanced left and right at familiar patients watching me leave, along with the workers. I felt like I was in a parade, all eyes on me. I wanted to do my farewell wave. For I, I was finally out of there.

I'm finally free.