Why Him?

ChapterFour

When we got home my mother was sitting on the couch, holding something I couldn't make out in one hand, and a bottle of wine in the other.

"Mom?" I was really confused. My mother is never up this late and she never drinks.

"Callie just tell me the truth. Are you pregnant?" Her words were slurred, but you could still hear the hurt in her voice.  

"Yes." I looked down at the ground and started crying.  

The mystery object was the pregnancy test I had left on the bathroom counter. How could I have forgotten to put that away?

"But Callie you've always been so good! How could you do this to me?! You are so young, and smart, and beautiful. Why would you do this on pourpose?" Damn it how did she know?  

John looked at me in shock.  

"You didn't do this on purpose did you?" I couldn't look at him. "John I thought this would make you feel better. You were so upset when you lost Camille and you haven't been the same since." He looked at me in disbelief. 

"I was upset Callie, but I was trying to fill that void with you! I proposed to you! I wanted to have a long engagement, I wanted to show you that I really am committed to you! And that I love you! You, you didn't have to do this." 

I cried harder and he wrapped his arms around me, and rocked back and forth like he did when he was upset. What have I done?  

My drunken mother made her way to her bedroom, and John and I went to ours. I was so stupid to do this! Now we're going to have a child, and I might not have John anymore. I was still sobbing whenever John sat down beside me. He rubbed his hand up and down my back while he stared blankly at a picture of us that was hanging on the wall. I stopped crying, and he kept staring. "What are you thinking?" I sniffled.  

"I'm thinking that maybe you did the right thing. Maybe it is exactly what I needed. Callie, when we first got together I didn't think I could ever fall in love with you, but I did. I have fallen hard for you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. And maybe this baby is the key to my happiness, I'm not sure. But I do know that I want it." 

He Smiled.  

"I didn't think you'd ever love me either. I just wanted to make you happy, I didn't do this to hurt you john, or to make you stay with me, I did it because I love you." 

He got down on his knees in front of me and put a hand on my belly. 

"My doctors appointment is tomorrow, do you want to come?" 

He nodded his head, still focusing on my stomach. Im glad John knows he wants this baby, because I'm not sure if I do. I didn't think I'd get pregnant so fast, I thought I'd have time to think about things. John raised up and kissed me like he did the day his father died, and that's when I knew that I definitely wanted this baby. If John felt this strongly about our child already, then I should too.  

That night when I fell asleep, I dreamed of a bouncing little baby who looked just like John, that sat in my arms as I rocked him. I woke up and John was rocking in his sleep, which meant he was having a bad dream.  

"John, babe wake up." I shook him lightly. He shot up out of the bed and screamed, which made me leap out of it too. My heart was pounding. John looked at me and I could tell he was really upset. "You were just having a bad dream." I whispered. He walked over and hugged me so tightly, it was hard to breathe. "You and the baby died in my dream." He kept squeezing. "It's ok baby. We're fine."  

I wasn't sure if John would ever get over the deaths in his life. 

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A/N: 

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