Flowers or tattoos

Chaoter 3

Louis pov

"I'm sorry mum but me and Harry have a dinner to go to. His mum wats to celebrate Christmas and my birthday tonight I guess because Harry also won't be here for the holidays." My mum just nodded looking sad, "Alright, just call me okay? I'd call you tomorrow but I don't know when you're plan lands."

"Okaii mum but we really have to go now. I love you bye." I hurried up and run out of the house pulling Harry with me laughing. "Lou why did you just run out of your mums house?" He asked giggling.

"Hazzie, sweet boy if we didn't leave then she'd have kept us there all night trying to get us together, I thought you'd be tired of hearing 5 girls talking about how cute we are after a hour."

Harry just blushed "I didn't mind. My mum and sister will probably be the same tonight to be honest. So be perparied. You'll probably be tired of me by the night because of all these girls!" We laughed at that. We are spending our day with girls. So many girls! "Exspecally if we are holding hands, Gemma will fangirl. My mum too." I looked down at our interlocked fingers as I was driving. I couldn't find myself to stop holding his hand, it just felt right.

"I could stop holding your hand if you'd like?" I asked sadly. Harry just gripped my hand tighter. "Never" At that I couldn't stop smiling. We drove a few minutes in silentce before I asked "Do you mind if I stop at a store real quick? I'd really love to get you guys something." Harry looked up from his phone before putting it away. "I don't mind. I was just texting my mum, she ain't ready for us to go to the house yet anyways. Plus I need to buy stuff to make more flower crowns." He explained. The one he had in today was green and red, the head band was green with red roses and green leaves. It really looked adorable.

"Hazzie, can I ask u something?" He looked at me. "Sure boo, you can ask me anything." I blushed at the nickname and looked down at our hands again. "Why do you wear flower crowns? I mean they look great on you but there has to be a reason for why you wear one everyday right? Like I have reasons for why I look the way I do with the tattoos and my snake bites." Harry just nodded. He looked like he was thinking of if he should tell me or not.

"Well you see, flowers remind me of strength. Yeah I know it's weird because their "girly" but the stem of a flower is strong. It holds up the flower. Even on rainy days when the actual flower is drooped down, the stem still holds it up. Now that stem is strong until someone pulls it and breaks it. Wearing a flower crown gives me hope that someday I'll find my stem to hold me up. It also reminds me that until then I have to be strong. I can't break again. Last time I was lucky my mum found me, next time I don't know if ilk be that luck."

I looked at him confused "What do you mean last time?" He loomed sad for a second, deciding if he should tell me. "I know about your step dad it's only fair I tell you about my hard time." He took a deep breath, but I took advantage of that time to speak real quick, "Haz, you don't have to tell me. Its fine, really." But Harry just shook his head. "I wanna tell you Lou, I want us to get to know each other. Okay, so in school everyone found out I was gay, they all hated me I had no friends at all. They would hit me and call me rude names. They always told me to kill myself. That nobody can ever love a sinner like me. That it was wrong and gross. I missed class so many timed because kids beat me till I passed out. Id wake up in the nurces office but nobody ever asked me if I was okay. They didn't care, the staff was like the students. The saw me as a sinner. I failed school because of all the classes I've missed which is why I have to work at my mums bakery. But I don't mind, I looked cooking and baking. But I was really depressed. I wouldn't talk to my mum because the kids at school had me believing she hated me and was just acting like she loved me, because who would love a sinner? So I cut. I still have marks all over my self." He paused for a moment to roll up his sleeves. I saw hundreds of scars, I couldn't help but cry. I grabbed his arms as I pulled over and kissed his arms. He pulled them away and lifted his shirt showing a lot more scars over his stumic. "I also have them on my legs and collarbone. And I just keep getting worse. This went on for over a year. As I got worse I couldn't sleep. I had to take a bunch of pills that weren't even mine just to calm down to sleep. But one day I decided to take more. I took two bottles of pills with alcohol. I over doced and my mum found me in the bathroom almost dead. She barley got me to the hospital in time. The doctor said if she was thirty seconds later I'd be dead. I wasn't allowed to interact with the out side world for 2 months. My mum keep a eye on me and that's when I started wearing the flower crowns. I had a lot of free time on my hands so I decided to learn how to make them. When I went back to school I was like a different person. People still picked on me, and laughed because of the flowers in my hair but I didn't care. I was finally strong enough to take the pain." Harry had tears rolling down his cheek. It broke my heart seeing him like this.

I placed my hand on his cheek and made him look at me. I wiped the tears off his cheeks as we stared into each others eyes. I looked down at his lips as he licked them. I leaned in and kissed him. As soon as my like touched his I froze. But then he started moving his lips, causing me to unfreeze and move mine with his. We pulled away with the need if air and it finally hit me what I did. I pulled away and looked ahead not making eye contact, scared he'd hate me. "Omigod, I'm so sorry. I don't know why I did that. I mean sure I wanted to do that sense I first saw you but it doesn't give me the right. I'm so sorry. You hate me now, fuck. I messed up again." I looked over to see him smiling. "Whats so funny?" I asked confused. "You're cute when you ramble, you know? And it's fine Lou I don't mind at all." I didn't know what to say so I just nodded. "Shall we go in the store? I need your help on what to get your sister and your mum. And while you buy stuff for flower crowns I'll get your present." He nodded and we walked in the store. I quickly texted his mum asking if she happened to take any pictures of me and Harry together and she said yes so I asked her to print me out a 10×8 and I'd pay her back when I got there and she agreed. So now I just need to get the rest of Harry's present.