I am just going to pour my heart and soul into this An.
As some of you may know, I've been depressed. Woo. Isn't that fun? No, I haven't been cutting or anything. Tomorrow is my moms wedding and I wont be able to deal with it once he's my stepdad. School started back up and stress has been put on me each day. I can hardly ever sleep and when I have the free time, I listen to music and eat ramen noodles. Other than eating ramen noodles, I haven't been eating lately. I have too much to do to worry about eating. Homework, chores, babysitting, writing, and plain out deciding what to do for the next chapter. Not only that but I've been in a bitchy mood. I would yell at everyone and argue with my family, lock myself in my room, and I have a snarky attitude around everyone. Its not like me. I feel like my life is becoming hell slowly but surely. And it keeps getting worse. Not only that, but my girlfriend broke up with me. She said that shes breaking up with me because I'm acting like a bitch. And we can get back together when I calm down. That broke my fucking heart. You may say "Oh it's just a break up, you'll get over it." No, you don't understand, she was and is the love of my life. You may say that about your girlfriend or boyfriend but this is different. I couldn't live without her. I'm just so depressed. I just want to lock myself in the closet and starve to death or die from dehydration. None of this would have happened if my mom just didn't agree to marry him. I hate everything. I wish I could change this I just hate myself for it. I hate everyone right now. I want to kill something. Punch a wall. I don't know. I just wish this never happened to me. I want my life back. I want to be myself again. I don't want to walk down lonely road. I want my friends back. I want my girlfriend back. I want my family back.
So ahead and call me an attention whore for this.
Call me a lesbian.
Call me stupid.
Call me over dramatic.
Call me emo.
Un follow me.
I don't care.
I just don't care what you do anymore.
You could hate on me all you want.
I don't care anymore. Just go ahead. Leave me alone for one fucking day. Let me think of what I will do for you guys next, let me think of the next chapter. You guys deserve it. You guys deserve another chapter. I wouldn't be an author if I didn't update.
I will try to publish a new chapter tomorrow.
I'm sorry.