Love, Me.

Hey You.

June 16th 2019

Hey You,

It's been two weeks since you left. I honestly never imagined being away from you would be this hard. It's so weird having the house to myself, with the exception of Lily. She misses her daddy so much. She'll come into our room in the wee hours of the morning and ask where you are. She's too young to understand the concept of war, so I just tell her you are out there keeping us safe and sound. She seems to understand that. God, I miss you so much. I've come to the conclusion that I hate sleeping alone. I miss your strong arms holding me, and the sound of your heavy breathing... It was sort of my lullaby. It's hard to sleep without you here. I'll manage though. Lou, I want to apologize for my behavior the few weeks leading up to your departure. There's no excuse for how I acted. I was cold towards you. I was just scared. The love of my life is out fighting in a war, and that scared the hell out of me. No amount of time could have prepared me for this. Knowing that there is a possibility that you'll never come home... Sorry for being such a Debby Downer. I'm just upset because instead of happily spending those weeks with you, I was a bitch. I hope you forgive me. It's about two in the morning, so I think I'll head to bed. I just want you to know that I'm always with you, and you are always with me. You're my soldier Louis. I love you. 

                                                                                             Love, Me.

July 23th 2019

Hey You,

Thank you for forgiving me! I knew you couldn't stay mad at me for very long. I am the man in this relationship after all.  Haha, just kidding. Ah, I miss you so much! I hope you're getting enough to eat and enough sleep out there. I'm always so worried about that. Lily is doing great! Can you believe she can tie her shoes already? 4 years old and already tying her shoes. She's so smart Louis. Just like you. I was looking through some of your old stuff in the attic and came across some of your old school work. That essay you wrote over the depletion of the rainforest literally brought tears to my eyes. It was brilliant. It's hard to think you're out there fighting in that at this very moment. Yesterday, your mother and I went out to dinner. She is so proud Louis. She constantly talks about how you give her hope. That you would give up your life to protect someone else's. She is proud of the son she raised. And I am proud of the man you have become. I better get going. I have to get back to work. I'm always with you. I love you. 

                                                                                                 Love, Me.

September 1st 2019. 

Hey You, 

It's been three months since you left. It still hasn't gotten any easier. It's been extremely hard to sleep the last few weeks. I've been watching the news everyday... I thank God every time I don't see your name on the list of deceased. Last night I went on a walk around 1 am. I saw the most beautiful star. It was shining so brightly. I closed my eyes and just imagined that we were looking at the same one. I do that quite often. It makes me feel that you're here with me. Ignore my negativity in this letter. I'm just missing you. And this is me kissing you xxxx. I'm always with you. I love you 

                                                                                                Love, Me.

September 13th 2019. 

Hey You, 

Just missing you a lot today. You're always on my mind. I love you. 

                                                                                                  Love, Me.