Love, Me.

Louis' Letter.

February 16th 2020

Hello beautiful, 

I love you. I could say those three words, every day for the rest of my life, and never get tired of seeing your face light up when I do. Do you remember our first date? I was so nervous that I didn't even talk to you. I was honestly surprised you called me back, but I thank God every day that you did. I can't believe that we've been together for 11 years. Time has flown by. Harry, tomorrow we are moving into battle. And for the first time, I am actually scared. This is the hardest letter I have ever written because I can't find the words to say....I just really hope this letter doesn't reach you. If you're reading this letter Harry, I'm not coming home. I had a feeling that this battle would be my last. I didn't want to go without writing you a goodbye. I'm sorry I had to put you through this baby and I hope you forgive me for leaving you so soon. I know it's hard, I couldn't imagine losing you... so I know how you must be feeling. But Harry I want you to know something. I gave my life up to save our country. I gave my life up to save our daughter. I gave my life up to save you. I will always do my duty, even if the price is my life. And I don't regret it. Not one part of me regrets it.  You have shown me what love is. God put us on this Earth to find each other. To show others what true love really is. We were meant to be together Harry, it was fate. Fate kept bringing us together.. knowing that one day we would find each other. Remember how we both attended the same concert and sat in the same row but we did not meet? Or how about when we were both stopped at the same traffic light, and looked over at each other at the same time? Finally, fate brought us together in that greasy, diner bathroom. Finally. I want you to know that every time I smile, it's because you put it there. You make me smile, laugh, when others can't. You make my heart race every time I see your beautiful face. Or hear your angelic voice. You have shown me how to live Harry. You have shown me what life is truly about. Before you, I was not the person I wanted to be. But you changed me. You have made me proud of who I am.  Every time we made love, it was like the first time. It was like our souls connected forever. I can't even describe the feeling... Every time we kissed I got this intense, magical feeling that I was right where I belonged. We have such an intelligent, beautiful daughter. I am so blessed. My only regret is that I won't be there to see her grow. I won't be there to see her off on her first day of school. I won't be there to see her graduate from college. I won't be there to help her heal from her first broken heart. I won't be there to walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. But I have faith that you'll take care of our baby. That'll you teach her how to love and how to care for others. You'll teach her to stand up for the kid on the playground that gets bullied, or befriend that new girl that everyone thinks is weird. You'll teach her to appreciate people from all walks of life. You'll teach her that life is beautiful and that we should live everyday like our last. Promise me you'll raise her in a house full of love and acceptance and never let her forget that her daddy loves her. I had a photo of you above my bed, so the last thing I saw before I fell asleep was your beautiful face. It was like you were watching over me. Now it's my turn to watch over you. I will always be watching out for you and Lily, making sure you two are always safe. Harry, you are the love of my life. I love you. I love you. I love you. I just wish I had more time to show you how much I loved you. Our love will never end. Just because I'm not on this earth anymore doesn't mean I'm not with you. Every time you ended your letters, you would say "I'm always with you". It's true, we are always with each other. So whenever you're lonely or sad, or just need an escape, just close your eyes. I'll be right by your side. I do love you with everything in me. You were everything to me. Never forget that beautiful. And never forget that I will always be here. I love you. You are my soul mate. I'll be waiting for you on the other side. 

                                                                                                                                               Forever yours, Lou