Only the Lord Knows

Chapter Two

"Remind me again why we're going to the well. "
"We're going to celebrate Kat's life and all get pissed drunk". Dillion said.
"I knew that but still it's the well". The well is just many of the drinking spots around here that we have. It's behind an old grocery store. With nothing else around and is a notorious hookup spot. This should be a fun night! NOT!!!! Ugh why me, why am I here? Why dear god, why? Also, when the hell did this become my life??????
"Ariel you knew we were going to the well, you should have said so earlier if you didn't want to come here."
"I do wanna be here but you know as well as I do what will happen tonight if we all stay together". I've known everyone since I was a little girl. Losing one of our own is as painful as it can get. Though it becomes even more painful when you have been in that person's shoes. When you know exactly what it takes to be in that place and wondering if you should kill yourself or live.
None of them know I have depression only those that I know for a fact that I can trust do. Living my life has never been easy an absentee workaholic father, a nasty mother, and a garish brute of a younger brother who you will never be able to wrap your brain around how he is such a well  liked person. Add all of those things up and you would figure out why I had come to the conclusion that I would be better off dead than alive. In my case though, after I had tried and failed I got the help that I needed. It worked for me but it didn't for her and that's exactly why I didn't want to  be here tonight. I knew in the back of my brain though that I should to celebrate Kat's life and the awesome , sweet, caring, funny person she had been before she had gotten sucked under by the disease, before she  both literally and figuratively abandoned ship.
It took me and Dillion a couple of minutes to get there and when we did it was a lot more packed than either of us had thought it would get. Everyone from earlier was there. None of us had bothered to even get changed. It was like we were all just in to stunned a state to do little more than just stand around crowded in groups looking like little lost puppies and that's what we were at that point.
"Hey Ariel" "Get over here" I hear from five different directions. It seems that I've been deemed the mama hen tonight and Dillion the dad which should definitely be interesting cause I knew what he was planning on doing tonight. He was gonna get pissed drunk and I would somehow become the designated driver and would be hoping that he doesn't throw up in the back seat like the last time. I wound up staying over at his place that night and when I came home late the next morning my mom read me the riot act and asked if we had slept together...again. We only slept together once, and that was it. And we were both very drunk at the time. We don't really talk about because we're both afraid of what the other might say.

My immediate answer to my mother:" Ew mom gross he's like a brother to me". Plus, we remember each other in our awkward phases so no trust me that will never happen. No way.  
"Dillion man what's up buddy" Nick says high five-ing Dillion at the same time that I realize that he just sloshed beer onto me.
"Alright ya dipstick what the fuck are you doing can't hold your liquor anymore" I say. And I should know better but it's still funny seeing the caustic idiot trying to figure out my insult in his drunken state. Don't get me wrong I know none of the guys would ever hurt me but I still reserve the right to be wary.
"Airy lay off Nick or once just tonight if it would pokeweed the court" MK says while coming up to kiss her boyfriend in her equally drunken state.
"Fine but only for tonight" I say.
Sheesh, when'd they all turn into such big babies.
After that the night hot steadily worse and my prediction right. Everyone was drunk off their asses.
I decided to leave. I know that Kat wouldn't have been mad at me. If she was still alive she probably would of come as well and we would've walked to wawa or giant and created chaos in our wake. That's just the type of friends we were. The type that it didn't matter when or where we were we would always have fun and get up to some sort of mischief together. Usually we passed out at either of our places later looking like hell the next day.
I said my goodbyes and left.
****~~A couple of months later~~*****
"Ariel get up" I hear my friend Cara shout. "We're going to be late for the concert if you don't get up now."
"Fine" I shout back " but only because their my favorite band." Which was true they are. We're on our way to see One Direction and we have pretty good seats on the floor by the stage. I had been sad ever since Kat's funeral and Cara thought this would shake me out of it. I wasn't too sure though but I was hoping for the best.