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update

Hai...

I know it's been so long since my last update and for that I am so sorry. I don't think you guys understand that I mean that with my whole heart every time I say it because I love this story and these characters just as much as you all, if not more.

I had originally started writing this story was I was sixteen. I loved the idea that I had come up with, fell in love with the characters, the story line, everything. Literally, every night before I went to bed I would imagine the plot of Vendetta and about the next chapter I was about to write because I loved it so much. I would be sitting in my classes, spacing out, imaging this universe or staying up until 3 am writing because I felt so passionate about this story.

It's been almost five fucking years (holy shit I'm unc) since I have come up with this book I love. Five years since I have created Phoenix and Hayes as these beautifully troubled characters. Five years since I have written that painful, tear-jerking prologue and fell in love with this universe. Five years since creating Aziel, Aspen, Cole, more characters that you guys have yet to meet, and these amazing complex backgrounds.

As you can imagine, in that time I have grown and changed as a person. I graduated high school, experienced 2 full years of college, starting my third year of college, grieved, tried new things,  all the things we do and experience as we get older. And recently, I have found myself wanting  to write for the first time in a long time. But every time I find myself wanting to sit down and open this website to write I find that there are so many things I wish I could change about this story and I think it's the main reason why I have been so unmotivated to write.

I've been feeling like this for a long time and I'm sure a lot of you have noticed since the updates have been getting slower and slower. 

I fear you may all know where this is going by now and it hurts me to say because I love this story so much and the idea of my words being out in the world is so meaningful to me. 

But, I (unfortunately or fortunately depending on how you want to look at it) have made the very difficult decision to discontinue Vendetta in order to rewrite it and make it better than it was originally intended to be (and possibly even publish it professionally? But that's a long shot so we shall see). 

Tears in my Latina eyes as I write this. 

Simply writing this update has given me so much motivation to restart this story and give all these characters the love they deserve.

I will be leaving this story up for anyone who wants to read or reminisce on this story. And if you are one of those people who will reminisce on my story, know there is a special place in my heart for you.

Right before writing this update, I found out that Vendetta is #2 in enemies on this app right now?! 

I cannot thank you guys enough for the love I have received from this story, for all the times you guys have come back to read an update no matter how long it has been since the last. I truly feel like you guys are my friends and I enjoy reading your comments even if I haven't updated in forever. 

From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for choosing to read Vendetta in the first place, for continuing to stick with me (whether it's been for the whole five years, a few months, or just recently), for being here in all honestly. 

Love you all dearly,
Clem xx
(currently sobbing)