The Unusual Suspects Book 2

Dom

I sat at the piano just playing a few chords and humming to myself. This had literally been my place of solitude. My mind had really been a whirlwind lately and I just needed something to really center myself. I constantly felt like I was at war. Like I felt like it was a lot going on and then nothing at all at the same time. So much has transpired in the past year and I was ready to just release it all and just move forward with my life. I had loss so much and gained even more. It's like I'm happy, but I always felt that feeling of doom. Like sooner or later it was gonna all crumble. Maybe it was a trauma response, but I just felt it deep down. I heard the door opening and Paradox was standing there.                                                                                                                                   "You either are planning to burn the whole building down or you thinking up a fire ass song." We shared a laugh for a minute. He came in and took a seat in the chair at the board.                                  "I been thinking of doing a R&B album this time. Like just let my feelings spill out in the music differently this time." I told him as I pulled the cover over the piano keys.                                                   "That would be a nice change up. As long as I get a feature, we good." he said with a laugh.             "You already know." I said as we shook hands. "But...I know you didn't just come in here for no reason. So what's up?" I asked him.                                                                                                                             "I hate how you just be knowing. But naw seriously though...we need to talk about my girls."     "Okay, what about them?" I asked him, even though I partially knew.                                                      "When I met you, it seemed like you had a little tight knit group of friends and y'all was gang gang about each other. I respected that, because you seldom get to see that anymore. You always came off as the nice girl and you made Onyx feel accepted from day 1. Y'all are literally locked in, you feel me? But what happened with you and Toya?" he asked me.                                 "You'd have to ask Toya. To be real, I don't get it. The reason why I avoid certain settings now is because I'm tired of the awkward energy between the two of us. I'm not gonna ruin anyone else's good time or shining moment because there's this riff that I don't even understand."            "Okay, I get that. but have you asked her about it?" he asked me.                                                                   "I did, but I never really get a solid answer. I mean shit at this point, if you know something I don't, enlighten me. I'm over here confused because one day we're cool and the next it's like I'm public enemy #1. I don't get it." I explained to him.                                                                                                "I got an answer, but I really want y'all to be able to discuss it. And no one is better to tell you than the source for real. But are you open to that conversation?" I thought about it for a minute and I really wasn't sure. A part of me really wants to know and the other part of me is like fuck it! If she cared about the relationship. she'd reach out. She didn't and then she plays like there's not a problem. How could we face a problem that she pretended didn't even exist. "Your pause seems like you're unsure. And it's no pressure for real D. I was just asking."                                                "If she's really ready to keep it a bean, I'll listen with an open mind. But I'm not about to allow her to drain my energy if we're gonna keep going in circles." I told him just as Kev walked in and they shook hands.                                                                                                                                                                 "I get that, because nobody wants to pretend with the fuck shit. I just was checking your temperature to see where your head was at. Because if we can have a come to Jesus moment, then I'm all for it. If not, I definitely understand that stance as well." he said to me.                                "I'm cool, you know me. She does too...just for whatever reason...here we are."                                    "Say less. I'mma leave y'all to it. Be easy." he said as he eased on out of the studio.                               "So...you good mamas? You been hella quiet the last couple of days and you've spent more time here. I mean that's always cool but I was trying to make sure you didn't need to talk or anything." And there was Kev, being Kev.                                                                                                                     "Just had a lot on my mind, plus been thinking about going with straight R&B with this album. It's a lot playing in my head to be honest." I said to him.                                                                                     "Oh I know you gone body that album. Catch you some fans that's trying to get to know you." he said winking. We both laughed at that. "See that's the first legit smile I've seen from you all day."  "Trust me, any day I'm with you, my heart smiles. Even if my face doesn't show it, know that."       "Don't be trying to get me with them one-liners." He said and we laughed again. "I feel like you're trying to get me out of my drawls." he said as we kept laughing.                                                        "No offense Bae, but you're kinda easy to get out your drawls, feel me?" I said winking.                      "I felt you, that's why I'm easy. You feel me?" he shot back and smiled.                                                       "Oh I be feeling you, alright. Every single inch." I said as I kissed him.                                                          "You female rappers, are slick boyyyyy I tell you." he plays entirely too much.                                           "All jokes aside though, I'm happy to hear that. Sometimes it is good to hear because in the back of my mind, I know. But I be needing to be completely sure." he said to me.                                "Aside from when my dad was still living, I think this is the happiest that I've been. And excuse my couple of manic episodes..." We both laughed a little. "...I couldn't be happier Love."             "It's only gonna get better from here. I promise you that."