*trigger warning*
~~~ AT SCHOOL ~~~
~Kyles POV~
I roamed the halls, thinking about what happened with Johnnie. I mean I enjoyed it... A lot. But after that night, we haven't talked. Idek why but I guess he's busy.
I bumped into my friend Tina. (wtf)
She was maybe a year younger than me.
"Oh hey Kyle! Whatcha doing?" She asked. "Oh I'm looking for Johnnie.. Have you seen him?" "Oh no, sorry. But hey can I come over later tonight? My moms gonna be working night shift." "Yeah sure. Bye." "Byee." She said, she pecked my cheek. She's my best friend though so its okay.
I walked off for about 5 minutes... I heard a moan around the corner. Little did I know that it was Johnnie with another guy. My heart sunk once I saw him making out with him. Why would he do this?? I tried so hard to hold back tears but ended up choking on them, making a sound. I saw Johnnie look at me shocked. By the time he saw me I started sobbing in my hands. I sniffed and wiped my tears with my sleeve and ran off.
He probably hated me like I hated myself. I'm such a fuck up. No wonder why he cheated on me. I'm just a depressed fag.
I ran out of the school and ran down the street, still crying.
I slowed down to catch my breath. I felt a hand on my back. I thought it was Johnnie but it was Tina.
"Heyy Kye! What- oh my god, are you okay?!? What happened??" She asked pulling me in for a hug. I started crying harder into her shoulder. It was kinda awkward since she was a little shorter than me but I didn't care.
She pulled away grabbing my hands, interlocking them. "Kye what's wrong?" She asked now more calmly.
"I-It w-was j-johnnie. H-he cheated o-on me." I said stuttering because I was still crying. "I-I don't deserve t-to live." I said dropping to the ground, pulling my knees to my chest.
"No no no Kyle. Its okay. I love you and I don't know what I'd do without you, okay? Please don't say that. He doesn't deserve you. You are gonna be okay, okay? I love you. You're my best friend and I would die if I lost you." She said sitting down and hugging me tightly.
"Okay." I whispered.
She went home for about 15 minutes to get some school stuff. I had 15 minutes to do whatever... I ran upstairs to my room and went to my night stand, opened it up, and looked at my friend. "Long time no see." I say under my breath. I grabbed it and went to my bathroom and locked myself in in. Still crying but not as hard as I was. I pressed the metal to my wrist.. Causing blood to spill out. Carving his name. I wasn't proud if myself. But it felt like my escape from everything. I heard a knock on the door. I quickly put the blade in my pocket and pulled my sleeve down. Walking out, thinking it was Tina... It was Johnnie.
"Kyle please I know I screwed up and I'm so sorry-" I cut him off by yelling "I TRUSED YOU! YOU BETRAYED AND CHEATED!!" I pulled up my sleeve showing him his name scared in my wrist, having dry blood stains. He gasped and put his hands up, covering his mouth. Tears filled his eyes.
"Just get out!" I said. "Kyle I'm-" "JUST GO!" I yelled. I heard my door open and see Tina. She ran to me and hugged me, pulling me back into my room, closing the door and leaving Johnnie in front of the door speechless. She sat me on the bed and said "I'll be right back." I just sat there and held the pillow up to my face, screaming and crying.
~Tinas POV~
I literally wanted to kill Johnnie.
I walked out his room and glared at Johnnie. I walked over to him and slapped him hard. "HOW COULD YOU?! YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH THIS HURTES HIM. AND YOU GO AND CHEAT ON HIM?? HE LOVED YOU." I yelled. "My name..." He said under his breath. "What..?" I asked. "MY NAME! HE CARVED MY FUCKING NAME INTO HIS WRIST!!" He said loud enough for Kyle to probably hear. I can't believe what I heard. I ran to Kyle and left the door open. I grabbed him and pulled his sleeve up. That was is for me. I started crying. He was a year clean before... Fucking Johnnie.
"Tina I'm so sorry!" He sobbed. I knew where his blade was. I reached in his pocket and took it and went into the bathroom while I grabbed kyles hand with me. I threw it into the toilet and flushed it. "KYLE YOU CANT DO THAT!" I yelled while crying. Johnnie fell down the wall bringing his knees to his chest. Sobbing. "IM SORRY!" he yelled. I pulled him into my chest, hugging him. "Please.." I whispered.
~Johnnies POV~
I never cried this much since my dad died. I really hurt him. Why did I do this? I loved him.
I held my head in my knees. I got up and wiped my tears.
"Kyle... I'm sorry. I don't ask for your forgiveness because what I've done to you is not worth forgiving." (haha get it... Maleficent... No? Okay. Carry on) I said holding my head down. I really fucked up. He didn't deserve this. I wanted to die.
I started to make my way down the stairs but someone grabbed my hand. I looked up but I was too slow. I was pulled into Kyles arms. Why was he hugging me? I'm a terrible person. But... I hugged back. "I love you." He whispered. I didn't say it back. I just simply helped his chin up and kissed him. He kissed back. Soon I said I loved him back.
We pulled apart and he turned to Tina. She had red puffy eyes. "Promise me you won't do that again?" I heard her ask him. I hoped he said yes... Which he did. I still felt so fucking guilty. She hugged him. I needed a best friend like that. Hopefully she would be my friend.
"Johnnie.. Sorry I slapped you. Even though you deserved it." She said. "I did deserve it... But I'll leave now.. And leave you and Kyle alone." I said walking down the stairs. I walked out the front door and walked down the street. I grabbed my phone out from my pocket along with my headphones. I tapped the app Pandora and Roger Rabbit came on. (fun fact, I'm listening to it rn) The song was an amazing song but it made me feel a bit more bad.
I wandered off down the road.
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HAIII LONG CHAPTER ^-^ YAY! But sorry for all the self harm and stuff. Ily alllllll <3
