5
I feel my heart beat change pace deep within my chest and know it must be because of her. But it's too late for her to be out here, she should be sleeping or at least in her room. What is she doing out here. It's still not safe.
Does she not realize what happened? It still isn't safe! Why does she come closer? I'm only lucky I stand alone yet again tonight.
Unlike last night, I'm going to reach her first and keep her safe. My strong legs carry me closer to her. I remain graceful and silent as I run to where my heart pulls me.
My heart beats faster with every single step she gets closer. But with every step she gets closer, I slow down and blend in with my surroundings so I remain unseen. It will take her a long time to reach me, but I will wait.
Not all angels can descend from the heavens the moment you want them there. I lay down in the snow, allowing my eyes to scan the area I have stopped in.
I stretch out my long legs and let out a long yawn. What if she never even shows up? What if my mind is just playing tricks on me, attempting to get me to go to her.
I decide that my mind is just messing with me and stand up on all fours and walk around freely to where ever with my head drooping. I walk in circles for a while, sure that she really is out here, and that I need to wait for her. And then I decide she isn't and begin walking back the way I came.
Finally, I come to the decision that if she is here I'll run into her, if not, I wont. I would have left completely but if there's still a chance shes walking out there alone, there's a change for her to get hurt again.
I sigh deeply and watch the cloud from my breath rise into the stars above me and disappear into the atmosphere. As I continue watching my breath rise, I catch myself standing up again.
I can hear faint foot steps far off in the distance making their way towards me. I turn my head so I can hear the footsteps better. It will be a while before she gets here anyway.
I begin to walk a different direction, away from the nearing foot steps. I still listen for the slow paced footsteps though. She's walking very carefully, I can tell by the way each step is placed into the compact snow.
She's searching for something. Suddenly, I turn back around and make my way towards the footsteps again. I can't even control myself. It's like I am forcing my self to go to her. Why would I be doing that? Its dangerous.
Her foot steps become louder as if she's convinced that she's the only one out here. She's being less careful. I need to make sure I don't scare her. I slow down my pace with every step I get closer.
I make sure I'm not walking heavily. If she hears me she'll probably freak out and run away. But I would to if I had been her. I sit down again and wait for her wandering foot steps to come closer before I get up again.
I feel like I'm waiting a life time for her. Why am I even waiting? I really feel like I'm a different person, watching myself from the outside. Telling myself, " dude! Get up! Your risking too much! Where did the guy I to know go?"
I sigh and watch my breath swirl up into the air in a cloud again. Suddenly there is a cool breeze that ruffles my fur and makes me shiver.
I curl myself into a ball and back up against a tree to block the wind. I look back in front of me and continue waiting. Her foot steps are getting closer. I can't just stay here.
I get up and weave through trees following the sound of her carful footsteps. She must be just feet away now, I can hear her heart racing.
I stay low to the ground, so I stay unseen. I can hear her breathing now. I search for her but I still can't see her.
A bright light passes over me and into the trees above me. I follow it over to someone holding a flash light. She's so close, if I were to get up she would see me. I can't move.
She walks closer to me, but off to the right. Slowly, I bring myself to me feet. I dare not make a sound. I wait for her to walk so she's far enough behind me that I can quietly walk away.
I put one paw in front of the other, keeping my head turned around, eyes on her. Shes so much more beautiful when she's not in pain. Her hair flows in ripples down her back and reaches her elbows.
My eyes stay fixed on her, almost daring her to turn around in see me. I keep slowly walking away from her, feeling my heart dropping every step I take away from her. It's not normal for me.
I turn my head and right in front of my face is the trunk of a tree and I walk right into it which causes me to yelp.
I spin my head around and see her turn on her heal. Her hair flips around and lands on her shoulders. I'm stuck there. Frozen in time. I can't move.
The moment her eyes meet mine I feel safe. But I need to run. It's like I'm sinking in quick sand.
