My High-School Experience

The first three days

August 14, 2015 

3rd day of school

Well, my school is just huge, I got lost a few times and was almost tardy twice because of a wrong turn. The school is just ridiculous in general.

What also sucks is that have almost no classes with any of my friends, only 3 of the 8 I have. I'm not alone at lunch which I guess is good, but still it's a little frustrating knowing you're pretty much alone throughout the school year.

Last night I got homework that completely stressed me out for no reason (Pmsing I swear to you that was it), and I just was in absolute tears because I don't like the fact I stress so easily, it has to be a disorder I swear to you. Anyways, I was in tears in front of my parents not wanting to do my homework at all like it freaking scared the heck out of me. 

Yes, I have a couple friends from school reading this that are probably like "whaaaaat?" and I'm over here like "yep...I stress really easily...like you didn't know." Hello my dears, don't worry at all about this, yeah it's a problem but the last thing I need is you guys worrying about it CX I can handle this, I'm fine.

I also get to school at like 7:30 in the morning so Laura and I just end up hanging out in the library or wandering the school getting hopelessly lost. 

Other friends of mine end up showing up and we all just kind of hang out, I don't have that many friends anymore, most of them are just acquaintances and just people I can talk to. 

I have 1 or 2 friends people I've met in the past 6 months and have become friends with over the time.

And finally I have 3 real friends that I know will always have my back no matter what (they know who they are, they know me irl since we were kids) , so as popular as people make me out to be, I really am not, people just know of me but know my name or any of that, I have just a couple true friends that I can always rely on no matter what, so yeah...I'm not as popular as you think Laura.

I know why I'm not all that popular and it's because of my personality, yes I am a kind, quiet, friendly person when you first meet me but after you get to know me I'm an insane maniac. My mood can change in .5 seconds, I can go to all happy to angry, then hyper to just down right depressed, I can go from sad to happy, tired to hyper, depressed to excited, anxious to calm, and I can't control them, it just happens. That typically scares people away. 

Insanity is just...I don't even know that's the time where I'm hyper/sleep deprived/excited/ect I will just...lost my mind and I'm surprised my 3 friends haven't given up on me yet and just left me in a hole to rot.

Yeah I can be friendly and sweet, but I am naive so sometimes I will say something insensitive and not notice it to forever later and just start apologizing only to find out they honestly didn't care that I had said that. 

So yes, I tend to scare people away and that is how I am known, I am the girl that is completely random and people can't handle me.

If they can't handle me at my worst though than they sure as heck don't deserve me at my best. 

So yes I am the quiet girl that hides in the back of the classroom hugging her sweater closer and reading a book. Yet somehow get's good grades...

So the two friends that could possibly be reading this (I know you know that I know you know who you are), to you say, first, I LOVE YOU <3333 and second, how the heck have you put up with me? Or have you just dealt with me? Are you immune? Like wat? Why? 

So that's me, and as you can tell a girl like me doesn't usually mix well in a high school.

How cliche....

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~Nik<3