Hey folowers and people that reading my book. I'm sorry my chapter are shorts. And i'm tryna to write more but i need more time cuz it's my first time.
Yes it was also the time i stopped believed in love. Ugh , i hate love , i hate to be loved. My heart was broken. I can't pick uo the broken piece by my own. But Josh , he didn't think about that . He is suchs a fool , a fvckboy yeah he is a real idiot , but he's also the boy i love. My mind was all on him. At school it was like i'm not my self . I was trying to shut everyone out.
It's been more than a month that I'm this quite. I didn't believed in love. It was so hard to forget the one you once love.
*schoolbell ringing*
I can't concentrate myself.
But I'm very thankful to have my partner in crime with me . She gotmy back everytime . Sadness overload . Jes , Esther said. Uhhh yes bee? We need to talk. Okay! We start a conversation . What we always did .
The day after tomorrow its a school party.
Jes , Jes ...... look what we have Chalay say. I can't even feel my face. What I see can't be true. Shit, Jennifer? No, no , no..... it's not what it seems to be.
At the time , it was like my heart stop beating.
I feel the pain.
Josh , just break me. He let me go without saying anything.
I was tryna not to cry. I was telling my self lies like . "He will come back" but deep in side my heart I know it was all lies Itold myself.
I been suffering for more than 3 months.
I know my friends reading my book. Than Iwill thank you'll for chearing me up.
I was broken. I became a stranger for him. I was just a star that can't shine.
3months later.
Esther , I must tell you something.
"Yeah tell me".
Uhhh Daniel ask me for another chance.
Daniel Kian , my ex-boyfriend. Uhh bee just think what you feel for him. But now I don't believe in love.
But Iknow I can't say no. That the little thing I can't. I don't know what I've done. But I've said yes to Daniel.
It's been 3weeks that Daniel and I are together. But I didn't tell any of my friends. All the things is still fine. I don't know but this feels good. Even it was a long distance relationship. "Jesus, school"
Ihate the school only because Iwill see Jennifer and Joshua. Not that I jealous but it hurts so much , even I moved on.
I can't hold in for myself no more. I decided to tell them all.
Uhh guys "I'm rollin' with Daniel again".
I'm sorry that I hold it all for myself.
1month , 2months, 3 months ,4months all going fine with goodtimes but also badtimes.
At the 5month of our anniversary , I saw a news feed on Facebook.
That one thing I don't want to happened.
"No , no .... not again . No" Iwas crying like a baby. I saw Daniel was in a relationship with Tasha. I said again "no , not again".
We broke up on 22.04.15 . He did not said anything to me. That's what breaks me the most.
I hate relationships , but this what I said again and again. The more u love them ,the more they breaks u.
Crying myself to sleep every night .
Telling myself he surely will return.
But than realize it was all gone in a little of time.
*fhone ringing*
"Hello, Jes speaking"
"Ooo hello , Daniel here"
" Oops , why you calling actually?"
"Uhhh , I wanna said I'm sorry for what I did "
"Ooo yes" , "when u broke it all"
"Please Jes "
"NO , don't please please me "
I hang up, I wouldn't be that rude but it still hurts me. He call me and please please me while he fixing other girl.
I give him more than 5 chances , but this time I can't forgive him. And never will.
I STILL DON'T HAVE FORGIVE HIM.
But I know he got no feeling , because it been 6month he didn't call me or text me or chat me. I know he surely ashamed to look at me.
Thinking of forgive him? No, never.
I know we need to move on , we need to forgive and forget. But know that I wouldn't do that.
Yes , I also moved on. I take to easily , I step in another relationship.
|I only have 2 ex-boyfriend. S and D .
The other where only fvckboys.|
Time flies like every single breath.
I know this was to fast. This was not good but I take a chance . I will work for it with all the love. Even I fight every day with him. I will go trough all good and bad time with another fvckboy .
Dillon Atmo.
Hello u'll that reading my story.
My apologize for waiting to long.
But no worries..... it's summer I will update every Wednesday okay.
Thankyou❤.
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