Torn {sequel to SNA} {n.h}

~7~

I reach over to snuggle into niall feeling a little cold all of a sudden I feel around in the darkness but he's not there. I lean over to check to see if he's fallen out of bed...Nope. That's one of Nialls habits he ends up falling out of  bed taking the duvet and my sleeping body with him. Trust me it's not the nicest thing to find yourself asleep on the floor in the morning the back cramp is the most painful thing.

I love staying in this room it's Nialls childhood room so alot of memories come with it its a little small but big enough. The walls are still covered in the footie posters and theres a calendar from 2010.

Maura couldn't bring herself to take the stuff down to many memories I think that's were niall got some of the lyrics from for story of my life. We were meaning to to paint it but we never get the chance to do it but to be honest I think we are the same as maura.

I get up putting on my slippers and dressing gown and sneak down the stairs trying my hardest not to wake maura. A grumpy Maura is not a good maura...at all

I have a feeling i know where he might be so I boil the kettle knowing its a little cold outside pouring out two cups of tea.

"Niall?" I whisper shutting the front door and making my way round the edge of the house he's sitting infront of the fire pit in the garden with his guitar in his hands he's gently strumming it with his left hand.

I smile to myself knowing I haven't heard him play acoustic guitar in such a long time. He spots me and looks up smiling.

"Come' erh" he says in his low Irish accent I walk over to him and sit on the log beside him placing the tea infront of us.

"Tar Zo" he grins as I smile weakly he pulls me into his side I instantly feel warm again however cliche that may sound to you.

"Ive missed you so much baby I know it's pointless saying that now but I really did I feel like such an idiot for not making the time to see you im so sorry..." As always I cut him off with my lips hitting his they move in sync as we role off the back of the log and he roles on top of me and starts to kiss my neck.

"Mmm..niall we can't do this here" I tell him as we sit up I give him one more pressured kiss and get back on the log.

" you can't do that to me" he sighs giving me the puppy eyes and glittering of eye lashes

"No...NO...okay maybe later" I give up as he claps his hands in result making me giggle

He starts to strum his guitar and passes me his lyrics I smile and look at my parts.

"This is some thing I wrote for you this year while I went away" he says as I nod he strums the guitar.

"Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
how did our eyes get so red" he sings looking down at me smiling nodding for me to go

"And what the hell is on louis head" I sing thinking of the memories of the idiotic louis I first met his chirpy self with a side hair cut now gelled up in a quiff.

"And this is where I grew up I think the present would if fixed it up" he sings this part obviously thinking as himself as the little brunette Irish lad from mullingar now world known blonde Irish lad from Ireland and so much more.

"I never knew we'd ever went with out checking floors after sneaking out and this is where I went i school most of the time I had better things to do criminal records said ive broken tags " he sings...so he used to loot shops interesting better not put this song out niall hah.

"I must of done it half a dozen times" I sing winking at him as he chuckles hugging me in again

"I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in"

"Oh, oh, oh
Oh, God, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye" we sing together I always love it when I sing with niall it makes me feel part of something and special.

"Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hanging out
They said somebody went and burned it down"

"We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel" I remember me and niall singing I the car on the way to the oh or shoot with theo that was one of the memories that stuck in my head.

"Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when"

"Oh, oh, oh
Oh, God, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye" the chorus is amazing it gives me such bad feels and makes me melt

"I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave" I sing trying not to cry smiling though it

"If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do, it makes me laugh
Every time I do, it makes me" he sings putting down his guitar I fall into his arms again and kiss his lips softly.

"You wrote that for me" I question as he nods his lips parting I let the tears fall. He pulls me to face him he is also crying more than me..that's a first.

"I promise I'm gunna make this work zo I love you so much and I hate we have to be apart like this" he says his tears still flowing I wipe his tears and kiss his cheek.

"It's going to be okay I'm so proud of you and I don't mind I go to uni you do your music and that's how it is neither of us can help it I finish uni this week and then im getting a job" I tell him

"Where are you getting a job?" He asks me rubbing tiny circles on my shoulder.

"I'm not sure to be honest I'll just have to see" I tell him as he smiles

" I love you so much" I say pecking his lips

" I love you too"