Torn {sequel to SNA} {n.h}

~4~

"I just wanna come over there so bad but I just can't the travelling and uni I'm sorry I just can't and don't cry cause I'll start crying again and Ive done my crying I've got no tears left" I sigh breathing to hold my tears back

"I'm sorry I've never made the time to see you and I feel so crappy for it I'm such a bad fiancé to you it's unbelievable" he says putting his head in his hands I sigh knowing I can't comfort him

"Niall it's not your fault when I started dating you I know what it came with you have a busy schedule and Ive have to except that fact and you make millions happy and that includes me so don't ever say that" I tell him causing him to smile at me as he drys his eyes of tears

"This is so like one of those cheesy fanfictions" I sigh into the camera on my laptop

"What do you mean" niall says still crying slightly I notice a single tear fall from his chin

"Ok well this film I watched okay... you need to book a flight don't tell me when and come and see me" I laugh sarcastically causing him to smile

"Babe I just wish I could come back it's your birthday and I can't just miss it" He sighs his eyes filling up again

"Babe I've gotta go Mauras calling I love you" I sigh blowing a kiss at the camera

"I love you too baby" he sighs as I close my lap top

*Niall POV

I close my laptop and sigh to myself sitting on the edge of my bed im sick of living like this leaving my girlfriend like this never seeing her or my family.

It's not fair on any of them I lean over and look at my phone 6:45 I look towards my guitar then my suitcase I can either make millions of fans happy or my girlfriend

Oh fuck it.

"Lads I've gotta go" I shout as the lads run out of their bedrooms to see what I'm shouting about.

"What's up" Louis asks me as I throw item after item into my suitcase including my clothes all bundled up into a ball my entire sick draw my under wear and toiletries.

"Liam book me the next flight to Ireland" I ask him frantically he sticks his thumb up and runs to my laptop plugging it into my printer as he does so.

"Niall why the hell are you going to Ireland ?" Zayn asks me sitting beside me putting his hand on my shoulder

"I need to get back to see Zo I haven't seen her for over a year..a year and I'm not missing her birthday so I'm going to go see my mum then go to England I'm sorry but I can't do that to her as well it's just not fair all these Skype calls are shit quality and I just wanna be able to hear her real voice and be able to actually hug and kiss my own fiancé" I sigh motioning for an eager harry to jump on top of my suitcase as I zip it round. I give him a thankful smile as he smirks laughing

"You do realise management are going to kill you right?" Harry laughs dusting his hands off on his skinny black jeans I swear they are the only jeans he ever wears.

"Yeah but she's worth it" I sigh laughing under my breath as Liam hands me my ticket I stuff my phone passport and a roll of cash into my pocket.

"I'll give you a lift" Louis smiles at me I pick up my suitcase and walk down the corridor

"Don't worry we'll cover for you" the lads shout down the corridor as Louis follows behind me

"Thanks lads I o u one!" I shout back as we step into the lift how lucky am I. I have friends that care about me an amazing job and an amazing family and the prettiest girl in the world as my girlfriend

"Right Niall lets get you on that plane" Louis says as I throw him the keys and we get into the car.

*20minutes later

"Thank you Louis" I say as we get out the car putting our hoods up and also our sunglasses

"JESUS why does Australia have to be so damn hot" Louis sighs as he shakes my hand helping me get my case out the back of the car

"Right you have a safe flight home and I'll see you soon" he smiles at me stepping back into his car as I make my way into the airport ready for the long flight ahead

*30 minutes later

A couple sit down on the seats beside me and I can't help but compare them to me and Zoe sharing ear phones and laughing at each other uncontrollably it just makes me miss her more than ever so I quickly make my way to the aeroplane and run on sitting down as it takes off.

I decide to ring her just to hear her voice that comfort I need for the next 10hrs ahead of me....oh God.

"Zoe" I say into the phone as I hear her yawn

"Oh hey ni what's wrong" she asks sounding extremely tired I gasp at the realisation

"Oh god Zo I'm sorry I didn't realise I forgot about the time difference"

"Aw hah Niall that's okay don't worry about it" she laughs into the phone what I would do to see her right now

"Good are you okay" I ask her curiously

"Yup great apart from you waking me up...the third time this week"she adds making me chuckle nervously

"Oh well babe I better go" I tell her getting my head phones out my pocket

"Happy birthday for tomorrow though babe" I quickly add making her laugh

"Okay well bye love you I'm gunna go to sleep" she tells me hanging up

Let's get this God damn flight over and done with then. I think to myself puting in my headphones