Gay Couple ☮

Confusion

      I stormed off to my house, uncontrollably sobbing. Cameron means so much to me, but how could he lie like that? I slammed the door to my room and stuffed my face into my pillow. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't know what to do. I was in a very uncomfortable situation.
      I cried for two hours straight and finally stopped. All of this crying made me dehydrated. I got up out of my bed and walked to the kitchen. I grabbed some water and noticed my phone was on the counter.
      Five missed calls, from Cameron. I ignored them. I went back to my room and stared into space, drinking my water.
      "Ding dong." The doorbell rang, probably Cameron. I opened the door and saw Shawn, crying. I set down my water bottle and gave him a hug, patting his back. He cried into my shoulder.
      "Come in, come in." I said.
      Shawn walked inside and I closed the door.
      "Let's go to my room and talk okay?" I said.
      "Okay." Shawn said quietly while sobbing.
      We walked into my room and closed the door. We both sat on my bed, facing each other.
      "I'm sorry." I said.
      "No...I'm not really mad at you. I'm mad at Cameron." Shawn said.
      I didn't reply.
      Shawn continued. "He was the one that lied to you, so it's not your fault, you thought that we broke up."
      "Yes,but..." I couldn't finish. Shawn interrupted.
      "But, I am a little frustrated that you two kissed in the field."
      "Yes I'm sorry, that's my fault. I'm sorry if I hurt you. Things got out of hand and I'm sorry." I said.
      Shawn didn't answer. We both sat there quietly for a few minutes. Then Shawn started sobbing again. He rested his head on my shoulder, pushing me down to where I was laying down. Shawn was laying on my shoulder. I stroked my hands through his hair. Trying to get him to calm down.
      Soon Shawn stopped sobbing.
      "I love him so much. But I don't know what to do." Shawn said, still laying there.
      "I don't know what to tell you either. It's your choice." I said.
      Shawn sat up and kissed my cheek.
      "Thanks for your help Skylar." Shawn said.
      "No problem." I smiled.
      Shawn left. I watched him through my window as he walked to Cameron's house. Cameron opened the door and let him in.
      An hour later Shawn texted.
      "We broke up."
      "Aw I'm sorry to hear that." I texted back.
      A few minutes later Shawn showed up at my door. I gave him a hug and asked him if he would like to come in. We went to my room again and shut the door. I laid down.
      "Forget Cameron." Shawn said angrily, taking his shirt off.
      "Uh Shawn..."
      He got on top of me and started kissing me. Grinding on me. It felt good but didn't feel right.
      "Shawn." I said.
      He didn't hear me and kept going.
      "Shawn!" I said a lot louder.
      Shawn stopped.
      "What?" He asked.
      "I don't think this is right." I said.
      "So what! Don't you think that kissing Cameron while we were dating was right either?!" Shawn said angrily. Shawn took off all of my clothes and took off the rest of his. He started kissing me. I didn't really want to do this but I couldn't force him off. We were both naked. Next thing you know I was moaning.
      Cameron opened the door. He was in shock. Shawn got up quickly covering his penis with his clothes. I covered up too.
      "You're having sex with her?!?!" Cameron asked, very upset. "You told me that we were going to try and work things out! You thought me kissing her was bad and now you're having sex with her?!?!" Cameron said with rage.
      Shawn didn't answer. Cameron slammed the door and ran home. I started crying. Shawn quickly got his clothes on and left. I just laid on my bed completely naked sobbing again. I tried to pull myself together, enough so I could do something about this. I got my clothes on and started drinking water. I called Cameron. No answer. I called again. No answer.
      I ran to his house, knocking.
      "Who is it?" Cameron said with an upset tone.
      "It's Skylar please we really need to talk." I said.
      A few seconds later Cameron opened the door. Shirtless, in sweatpants, with ice cream and tissues in his hand.
      "Come on in." He said.
      I walked inside. Cameron sat down on the couch and paused Netflix. I sat on the other part of the couch so I could face him.
      "I know you are mad at me, but it's not all my fault. Shawn texted me saying you guys broke up." I said showing him the text. "Before he went to your house, he came to me, crying asking what he should do. Then he texted me and came to my house again. I thought we were just going to talk about what you two talked about but instead. He ripped my clothes off. I was very uncomfortable and told him this wasn't right but he wouldn't stop. Then he started f****** me. Then a few minutes later you walked in. I'm really sorry. You probably don't believe me but, most of it isn't my fault. I'm really sorry. I don't like Shawn that way." I said
      Cameron was very focused, listening to what I was saying, trying to process all of it in his brain. We sat quietly for a few minutes.
      "I believe you." Cameron said.
      "Really?" I asked.
      "Of course. You even have evidence. The text. Of course I would believe you cause you have never lied to me. You told me how you felt when we were kissing." Cameron said.
      All of a sudden I felt better inside.
      I sat down next to him. We interlocked fingers and started watching Netflix. I looked at Cameron and we kissed without any tongue for a few minutes. We stopped.
      "I don't like Shawn, I like you." I said.
       Cameron stood up and grabbed me. He picked me up and we walked to his bed. He laid me down while he was still standing up. Cameron leaned his head down with his hand stretched across the bed. We started making out. I pulled him in closer to me. It was an amazing feeling like we were the only people on earth. Cameron closed the door. We had sex and it was amazing. It finally felt like our relationship again.