Everything Will Be Fine (Janxx)

Chapter 2

Jakes POV :
I glanced at the clock. It just changed to 11:11 I closed my eyes "please someone help me" I whispered then opened them. My wish is the same every day and night.

I sighed and Opened the bottem Draw and grabbed the washcloth. While Unraveling it 4 of my razors fell out. I picked the smallest one that makes deeper cuts.

standing up, I Looked In the mirror. Lifting up my shirt sleeve I pressed the razor on my shoulder and dragged it down. "You're so fucking stupid" a tear fell on my cheek. I repeated this action 2 more times. "Cut deeper, feel faster, and less scars.." I muttered. Then quickly washed the blood off. I heard my dad coming up the stairs so I wrapped it up quickly then put my shirt sleeve down.

He busted through my bedroom door "where are you bitch?" I started shaking. I knew I couldn't avoid him so opening the bathroom door I mumbled "ye-yes father?" "Oh there you are. I just wanted to remind you that nobody loves you." He smiled. I put my head down "I know.." I whispered. He grabbed my hair and jerked it back causing a little scream to escape my mouth. He hit my neck and I fell down. "Next time instead of my hand, that might be a knife." He walked off into his room.

I layed on the floor crying.

I managed to get up and walk to my bed and look Under it where I saw my lighter and a cigarette. I lit it and took a few puffs. I looked at the lit end then pressed it to my skin. I flinched and removed it to another place on my arms. I left 4 burn marks. "I need something stronger" putting the cigarette out I grabbed the bottle of pills from my bed. I poured a handful into my hand. "This should be enough. I don't want to be here anymore"

I got up and headed to the bathroom but I heard my phone ding so I walked back to the bed and checked it.

"You Did nothing wrong. It's just .. idk I really want you to talk to me if you need to.. I just get a bad vibe. I hope you're okay." -jinxx

Me- "I'm not okay.."

{There goes the MCR Fandom commenting the rest of the song lol}

"What's wrong? PLEASE talk To me. I want to help." -jinxx

I debated on whether I should tell him or just take the pills. I decided to give it a shot so I tossed the phone and grabbed the bottle of pills. "Maybe another day" I put the bottle back under my bed. my phone notified me twice but I didn't pick it up. I don't know how to describe what I'm going through.

"Please jake?
You can tell me anything" -jinxx

Me- "I don't know how to explain it.. I'm just not happy. When I try to be.. I'm constantly reminded of how horrible I am.. I'm sorry jinxx but I don't know if I'll ever be okay."

"I'm not going to make a promise that I can't keep but please try and stay strong. You need to find things that make you happy." -jinxx

Me- "you don't understand.. my dad,Beats me.. he's done worse in the past.. it's just I feel like giving up. I'm a useless piece of shit. I don't deserve to be happy I guess."

"Jake, everyone deserves to be happy. listen, Don't take this weird. But.. I care about you a lot so please don't say that stuff. I want you happy. You're not a piece of shit so don't say that." -jinxx

Me- "you don't even know me.. if you did I'm sure you wouldn't care about me i screw up everything. I'm the reason that my mom died.. I'm the reason why we got kicked out of our house. I'm the reason why my dad hates me. I'm the reason for everything.. im the reason why everyone leaves.."

"No don't you ever say that! I am never going to leave unless you want me to. I'll Be Here for you. And if you want, soon I'll find a way to come see you. When I get committed, I make shit happen. So don't you ever say that shit. You matter. you shouldn't blame yourself for any of that. Please don't. You deserve to laugh and be happy. You deserve it so much! You're worth so much.. people are just too stupid to see that. I want to learn every little thing about you jake.. if we do make the decision to meet each other then I'll promise that you're going to be fine with me. Do you hear me? Everything will be fine when you're with me. I promise. I know depression sucks and it's hard to be happy but please... try for me." -jinxx

I smiled at his last message. I guess there is some good people still in this world.

Me- "Thank you so much jinxx. That helped me alot. I really do want to meet you too.. you.. you literally saved my life just by talking to me.. this may sound weird but I made an 11:11 wish and it finally came true. Thank you so much. I really should get to sleep though. We can talk tomorrow okay?"

"I'm glad I could help so don't thank me. Of course we can talk tomorrow. Actually... do you maybe want to talk on the phone tomorrow?" -jinxx

Me- "sounds good. My dad won't be home at 10 and doesn't come home until 5 so we can talk somewhere between that time."

"Alright. Well have a good night. Sweet dreams Jakey :)" -jinxx

Me- "Sweet dreams jinxx"

I layed my phone down and smiled. "Thank you.." I kept repeating in my head. I actually for once felt so happy.

I turned over and felt warm liquid running down my arm. I quickly went to the bathroom and took a shower. I got out and my arm finally stopped bleeding. I wrapped it up and put on sweatpants and a button up shirt. I fell asleep thinking about what jinxx had said.

Awh dey babies
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