Next Morning
"Baby I gotta go to football practice , but I'll cancel if you want me to stay here" Tae said.
"It's okay , I'll be fine" I said.
I walked him to the front door.
"Bye baby" He said.
He kissed my lips and left.
I closed the door and went back upstairs.
That dream I had was so realistic.
It was my mom and she pointed a gun to a man and he said "your not going to shoot me baby girl" and laughed and she said "your right" and smiled and pointed the gun to her head.
The last things she said before she shot herself was
"I love you Anicee , I'm so sorry"
A tear slipped down my cheek.
Maybe it was just a dream.
I went to my walk in closet and got four blunts from my weed bag.
I threw on my Bob Marley shirt and put my hair in a bun.
I grabbed my laptop and my weed and opened my window.
I sat on the balcony and smokey my weed.
I turned my mac book on and searched my mom's name on google.
A whole bunch of things popped up.
Woman kidnapped three times.
Woman may be dead.
Missing woman kidnapped by Jermaine Lamarr Cole , never found.
I searched up 'Jermaine Lamarr Cole'.
A light skin guy with nappy hair popped up. He looked scary to me.
He kidnapped my mom ?
I closed my laptop not wanting to be on this subject anymore.
I grabbed my blunt and smoked it as I layed down and looked at the sky.
My mom's face appeared in the clouds.
"I love you babygirl" She said and faded away.
A tear slipped down my cheek.
I put the blunt back in my mouth and let the smoke inhale into my body.
My phone started ringing.
I looked over to see Ash was calling.
I just ignored it.
I'll call her later.
I smoked my last blunt and let it sit in my body for a little longer than the others and exhaled.
I closed my eyes as felt rain hit me.
I got my laptop and phone and went back into my room.
I put my phone and laptop on the bed and went into the bathroom.
I ran some shower water and waited until it was to my likings and got in.
I stepped into the shower letting my hair down.
The warm water sprinkled on my back.
It felt so good.
I closed my eyes and let the water and relaxed my back.
I pictured myself in a waterfall just singing.
" I've been sleeping past day light
I'm waking up you're not by my side
Baby that ain't right
I wanna be there with you
I really do be missing you
Everything I do is for you
And I really do adore you
You're getting so big now
You're making me so proud cause
You are such a star
And you know that you are
So every single little moment
I can't be there to hold your hand
I need for you to know that
I need for you to know that
Anything should happen, anything should happen
Cause anything could, if anything should happen
Know that you'll be alright, know that you'll be alright" I sang.
"Swear that I can still feel you here
I just can't believe you're not here
I've been needing you
All I dream is you
Don't think I can make it
I don't think I can make it
But then I hear you say that
I bet not do nothing crazy" I continued singing.
~
I stepped out the shower and wrapped a towel around myself.
I walked back into my room.
I put on a black hoodie and some black sweats.
I put on some black Nikes.
I braided my hair dosn my back.
I decided not to wear any makeup.
I grabbed my phone and keys.
I walked downstairs and grabbed a Fiji water.
I left out the front door and locked it.
I decided to take a walk.
I put my earphones in my ears.
I played The Weeknd - Devil May Cry as it blasted in my ears.
I started my walk as the sun hit my face.
I don't think I'll be going to school for a couple of days until I get my mind right.
