The Merman Named Castiel

Chapter One

Castiel's POV

"Castiel!"  I heard someone call after me.  I turned around to see my younger brother Gabriel swimming up to me in a hurry.  He didn't stop as he grabbed my hand and pulled me with him.  "Gabe.  You know we aren't allowed at the surface.  Especially during the day."  Gabe just ignored me and kept swimming.  We reached a cluster of rocks near the shore, and hid behind them.

"Why are we here?"  I prod.  "Relax big bro.  The beach is closed off for some concert thing and I thought it might be fun to watch."  He said innocently.  I just roll my eyes.  "Ok.  Just for a little while."  And I was true to my word.  Except we stayed a little longer than expected as it was getting dark by the time we were about to leave.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a man with a guitar strapped to his back talking to a man with a...  Suit?  I think that's what Gabe told me it was.  He has been on land a few times and has picked up a few things.  After a while of those two talking, the guitar man's shoulders slumped, and he walked off to the other end of the beach.

Gabe was already pulling me t'words where he was.  "That's Dean.  I met him once or twice.  Hes got a little brother my age.  They both come from a real nice family.  Dean here wants to be a musician, but no one ever gives him a chance cause he is supposed to be a mechanic."  I nod.

"Quick question Gabe.  What is a mechanic?"  "It's a person who fixes cars."  I nod again.  "What's a car?"  Gabe facepalms his stupidity and explains as best as he can.  Soon the guitar man or, Dean, wades through the water, and sits on some rocks.  Far away from us, but we could still hear what he was doing.  He start strumming his guitar for a while, before starting to sing.

I've given up on giving up slowly, I'm blending in so
You won't even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because
I gotta get outta here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging You to be my escape.

I'm giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how
He's told me the way and I'm trying to get there
And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake
I gotta get outta here
And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging You to be my escape.

I pull myself up on one of the rocks and pull my blue tail up to my chest.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can't ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because
I've gotta get outta here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I've gotta get outta here
And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You