Insane

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➝Scarlett
As my eyes slowly started to open, I noticed I was back in my room.
I hissed when pain flowed through my head.

Aw shit. I have a fucking headache.

I lifted My head, looked down, and saw I was strapped to the bed again. I looked up a bit and saw Matt was sleeping peacefully on the other side.

The face he made when I snapped is still stuck in my mind.

What if I am insane?
What If all these times, people thought I was insane?
Does Matt think I'm insane?

I began to silently cry because my life is fucked up.

I was born with a demon In me..
I was raised with a demon in me...
I was given away because of the demon in me..
I was judged because of the demon in me..
People are terrified of me because of the demon in me...

"Why is my life fucked up? Why me?" I quietly sobbed.

"Scarlett?" Someone called out and I got wide eyed.
I began to sniff and I tried to blink the tears away.
"Scar are you alright?" Matt said as he sat up.

Oh his messy hair is adorable.. Not now scar!

"Scarlett?" He called out once more and stood up and began to walk over to me.
"Please stay away" I whispered as I tugged at the straps.
"Why?" He said, giving me a sad look.
"Just please stay away" I whimpered.
"No" he said.

"I said to fucking stay away from me!! Can't you see I'm a freak! can't you see I have a demon in me?! Can't you see? I'm a demon, I'm insane" I whispered the last part while closing my eyes.

"Scar, insane or not, I'm not going to stay away from you. I don't give two shits if you have a demon in you. Because I have two that are following me. Scar you're making me go insane. I can't keep you out of my mind. These past few days have been difficult for me. Everyday, my feelings for you keep growing.
I love your smile.
I love your eyes.
I love your laugh.
I love your lips.
I love your body.
I love your hair.
I love your voice.
Scar, I love everything about you. I love you"

By now I'm in tears again.

What do I do? I'm experiencing this for the first time... Do I love him? What does love feel like? No one has ever shown love to me and Matt is the first person to show me...
What should I do...?