FNAF One Shots - REQUESTS CLOSED

Author's Note - No More Excuses

Hey all :) it's your friendly neighbourhood SiMAS here! 

Long time no see, huh?

I know I keep popping in here and there promising that I'm working on something big-- and trust me, I am! But I haven't been sharing any of it, and for that, I apologize. I don't want to make any excuses for myself-- because I know there are none-- but I do want to explain a little bit about what's been going on. Why I've been borderline radio silent about... everything. I just want to clarify, this is not a "WOE IS MEEEE" cry. It's just a bit of insight to what I've been dealing with to give you guys a proper answer. 

Long story short, life hits like a brick in the face. I'm pretty sure that's something we can all attest to ^^; haha. 

To elaborate a bit... 

After my friend's mom beat her cancer, it was apparently my turn for life to take a sharp U-turn. My dad kept going in and out of the hospital-- which is nothing new, but it was getting worse. My own health tried taking a nosedive a few times, so I was getting worse and doctors didn't have solutions. They never do. The people in my life are suffering left and right and there's nothing I can do. I'm not gonna bore you with the exact details, but my best friend and I ended up making a bet to see whose family would end up in the hospital more over the summer. And then we had to change it to see who would have the most misfortune throughout the year. If you want the end result to either one of those, we kind of lost count 😅 but considering the tragedy that struck her family twice, I'd say she wins. We're going to her dad's funeral tomorrow. 

I really want to tell you the story of how the last couple of years have been for us here, but there's so much to talk about and I don't want to hit you with all that drama. But if you want "SiMAS Family Lore Storytime", I can certainly make an update for that 😅 it's quite the roller coaster. 

All that being said, the reason I haven't been updating my works in a while is because of all the chaos that's happened between our families over the last few years. Writing is my passion and my escape, and I want to turn it into my career-- but I've been so afraid of just not being 'good enough' that I've been making all kinds of drafts for every project I'm working on, and rewriting them over and over in an attempt to make them 'perfect'. I have really bad agoraphobia, which apparently does not pair well with really bad Imposter Syndrome ^^; who knew? So for every draft I write, there's been a mixed reception within myself demanding perfection that doesn't exist and destroying myself when I can't live up to imaginary standards. Which then leads to me withdrawing even more to try to hide from myself. It even got so bad I had to take time off work just to work on myself and my works, but there's hardly any progress to show for it. I have to go back to work soon, though. My mom shouldn't have to work two jobs and exhaust herself because I can't pull myself together.

So what have I been working on?

Actually, a lot of things '-' 

I've mentioned it before in author's notes I've since deleted (😅), but I have several books in the works-- original fictions as well as fanfics-- plus a couple of comics, the script for a film project, and a couple of games that I'm working on. I'm also an artist, so I've been keeping myself occupied with my art when I can't write. Usually if I'm not doing one, I'm doing the other. Art and writing have always been my main passions in life, and I want to turn both into my career someday :) that's my dream. So if I could only crawl out of this agoraphobia long enough to actually show people my works 😅 maybe we could make something like that happen. If you're interested, I have an Instagram @simas_on_34th. I'm trying to post more, but I also keep archiving half of my works xD so this isn't just a shameless self-promotion, it's a worthless one too 🤣 love this for me!