Forever Sad

Chapter 2 : Rose's Deppression

  When she turned 12 everything changed. That out going fun personality of hers faded, but really she just hid it from people. She became more sad,shy, and alone.
She didn't want to talk anymore since they would bully her. Soon she became the one who was the joke.The one there if she was needed. She wasn't popular she felt like the outcast , and she hated it.

 
Rose became to be a very sad girl. She let her mind consume her. She let her thoughts get to her. She began to think no one liked her , because of the way people acted towards her.She assumed no one wanted her around. She felt left out, betrayed, and hurt.
She always thought everyone preferred her sister more than her.So she started locking herself in her room. She began not coming out, and wanting to be left alone. She became more addicted to listening to music and playing in her phone. Soon she couldn't take it no more. Doing that didn't take the pain away. So she resulted in inflicting pain onto herself. She wanted to feel the pain physically to release it. She was becoming more obsessed in doing it every time she felt pain. She couldn't stop. She was stuck, lost, confused, and hopeless. She began to change.

She started to cry herself to bed. She became week and unmotivated to do things. She was always so tired all the time and her mom didn't know why.
Also she stopped smiling like she use to. She always said
" I don't smile anymore because I know it's fake, and I don't want to put on a show for people acting like I'm happy when I'm not . Besides if I smile it puts me in tears because I know I'm not happy."

She hated the life she was in, then she soon began to blame herself. So it made it worse for her to try to move on. She thought know one could help her, even if they tried. She knew help wouldn't do her good unless she would help herself into letting them help. But she never put herself to do that. She knew the help would only last so long until it would happen all over again. So she would just try and hide her depression so people wouldn't notice or bother her about it .