Harry P.O.V
Louis sat beside me I know he didnt mean to shout at me I took a deep breathe it would be good to get it all out, and if he hate me well I wont mind at least I think I will die soon so I wont have to face the disgusted face he will give me everytime he see me after I tell him
'And why tell him from the first place ?' I thought I just shrugged and and looked up.
"It all started when I was in highschool" I said he looked at me then stayed silent I know this is my cue to complete.
"I went to school like any normal teenager, I wasn't bullied never my whole life I wasn't an outcast nor popular but I was known as the 'Hottie', it was my P.E class and when we finished I went to shower, when I finished I talked to some guys and then i started dressing it was the last class I was about to leave but then a hand held me from my wrist I looked back it was William he was one of the popular people in the school" I said wincing at the memory tears started falling from my eyes .
"You dont have to complete" louis said I shook my head.
"I want this and I am 100% you are aching to know" I said he was about to talk but I just put my hand on my mouth as a signal to shut up he looked at me and nodded.
"He told me that I am a really hot guy, I was shocked cause I had a crush on him, yes I am gay, he then pushed his lips on mine I-I kissed back suddenly his friends opened the door he looked at me wide eyes and parted from me and h-he pushed me a-and told me to not t-touch him again I still remember what he said 'What a fag dont touch me' " I stopped to gain my breathe I looked at louis who looked shocked .
"From then I was being bullied for something I didn't do especially his group they beat me for touching him, he was the one who do it for gods sake, I s-started cutting from that d-day I was so sad my mum one time while I was sleeping shirtless saw the scars she c-cried f-for the whole night I wanted to get up and comfort but I was to weak to even get up" I said he looked confused
"Yes I was acting asleep before she came I-I Was just in t-the bathroom I heard shuffle out of my room so I cleaned the cut fast and entered to bed forgetting to wear my shirt" I said remembering the way she stayed at my room crying and whispering 'my baby' it broke my heart I even cried a bit but she didnt notice.
"The next day I went to a therapist first I hate the idea but then w-when I remembered how m-mum cried I did it and I-I became better than before and the school had already forgot and William never bothered me again when I finished highschool that I wished to get out as fast as possible unlike before but yea, you arent always the same p-person but his group still look at me in disgust I tried to get a girlfriend to make them believe I didn't hit on him, but who am I lying to, I know and they know I am gay, and all the girls told me 'we wont like to touch a fag' " I said crying I felt alone and hopeless at that time, louis hugged me .
"When it was my first day at work it that was nearly 3 years ago I was at that time living alone I was closing the shop leaving, it was 9pm" I said stopping that is the worst part I took in a deep breathe I looked at louis who looked sad.
"I was walking down the street, then U turned into an alley t-they w-were a-all there and d-drunk they beat me, W-William, D-Danny and their l-last friend Evan, they b-beat me a-and they t-they craved the w-word fag on my back, I HATE THEM" I screamed from frustration the memory and all I didnt care at the moment and I clung at louis' shirt tightly and sobbed I sobbed hard i heared him gasp.
"Oh god" he said holding me tightly I cried and cried the memory I still cant remove from my head I remember they left me there but then the police came and I was sent to hospital.
"The p-police came they sent me to the h-hospital then I was o-offered a therapist ........ again" I said and laughed sadly, I still dont know who called the cops.
"W-What is funny ?" louis asked looking at me clearly sad and shocked.
"My life is just fucked up when I thought I would finally find peace here I am stuck
in a home in the middle of the woods with nobody knowing I am missing" I said he shook his head.
"Harry we will get out of here soon" I said and I smiled, I still dont know why he is staying here why isnt he pushing me or telling me I am disgusting to leave someone do this to me.
"Anyway, I went to a therapist I became better and better but the only problem is the doctor told me to really heal I have to at least do a plastic surgery to remove the scars of the ummm w-word but i refused and I on the top dont have a lot of money for the surgery, I get paid well but not that well to make a surgery, he told me if I ever become sad about it just ignore it" I said remembering the day. that was my struggle whenever I shower sometimes when i give my back to mirror I see it and it makes me cry.
"I came with an idea when I found it hard to ignore it I ummm- put a foundation on it, till this day I s-still cut but not always when I only see the scar but sometimes I feel a bit strong and I do a great job at ignoring it, b-but it is hard do you know what is it like, to b-be marked w-with s-something that makes you feel like a trash , to k-know there is something is gonna stay as a symbol of something, when you looked at yourself, I cry I feel like wanting to change my body, i-it h-hurts" I cried again and louis hugged me hard .
"Harry I am really sorry for hearing this this is absolutely terrible, I know I wont feel or know how much it hurts, but if you have made once a good job at ignoring it you will make it again and again, you dont need to prove to someone that you arent something when he cearly doesnt care, all you need is faith in yourself" he said and I nodded his words were encourging and comforting.
"Thanks for listening I never thought you will even complete to listen to the end" I said he smiled, We stared into each others eyes for a while when louis started to lean in, I closed my eyes, when our lips I think he realized what he is doing, He got up fast and looked at me with a deep blush.
"I- uhhh have to leave, I am sorry" and he was about to leave when there was a knock it was Zayn calling for us to eat, I got down feeling a bubbly feeling in my stomach
Zayn P.O.V
I stayed with Niall down louis got up after harry .
"How are you now ?" Niall asked and I nodded.
"Fine, but I am hungry" I said and Niall looked at me he then looked at liam there was a look in his eyes ..... regret ??!
"Liam" niall said snapping liam out of his thoughts.
"can you umm light a fire ?" niall said and liam looked confused.
"Why ?" he asked .
"I am hungry" he said he nodded but then looked at me.
"but we cant do it in that snow the coolness of the air and the falling snow, they will obviously make it imposible" he said and i thought for a bit.
"Who said we need to do it out" I said he looked confused.
"What do you mean ?" he asked
"We can make it in the fireplace" I said and he smiled.
"Yes yes you are right" he said he got up and we started making the fire then we started making the corn we need to get more when we finished liam told me to call louis and harry.
"Ok" I said and left I got up and went to the door before I could knock I heard sniffles.
"T-they craved t-the w-word fag on my back, I HATE THEM" I heard harry said and I was confused then my eyes went wide .
"No no no you cant be" I whispered.
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-Harry he ........ oooh I am such a bad person to do this to him :) x
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Fanfiction"Just kill them already,all they are gonna do is take him away from you and you are gonna be alone" "No, Go away" "Kill them use your powers show them who they are messing with, c'mon a simple slit in the throat wont do anything" "M-Maybe" ...
